Always love
"Being out of touch made me realize that I never really wanted you.
At first it hurt not to hear her voice, not to see her name when the call came in, and I waited for the call, waiting for the message, or any sign that she still cared.
I used to think of missing her endlessly, but it turned out... I found myself in the midst of her absence.
I have learned to live with myself, to smile without relying on anyone. Her absence taught me that life can still walk without her.
The ever-heavy silence becomes peace of mind, the distance that used to cut deep becomes freedom.
I once thought I couldn't let her go, but today I see clearly I don't need her to feel worthy, don't need her words to feel worthy, and don't need her presence to feel complete.
Because I'm... completely on my own.
Not only did not contact her, but I regained my identity. "