The funny thing about love
When you grow up without proper love, you learn to give to much away in hopes it will be returned.
Your heart flutters and skips with panic to make sure you can say good bye for a long day ,
Your body is overcome with excitement and peace when near them,
Everything pulls you towards them,
Like an itch you can scratch, like a high you’ll always chase.
Loving them is a drug.
You wrap around them, envelop their soul into yours, walking the twisted hallways of their mind and open doors where behind each is a lesson of understanding, when you master one it’s in your the next, and you won’t stop until you’ve succeeded.
When you grow up without proper love, you never learn to love. In hope that someone will finally show you.
When they are near you’re excited, overjoyed … but they would never know
You forget to say good bye, bc you know they will love you anyways, and will always come back. It never crossed your mind they may not.
Everything about you pulls them towards you, they need to love you.
It’s a high being loved by them, why should you share .
Their love is a drug that I never have to stop asking for because it is always there.
They wrap around you , envelop your soul into theirs , walking the twisted hallways of my mind and open doors where behind each is a lesson of understanding, they spend so much time putting pieces together little crumbs I’ve left until they master one, and it’s on to the next, and they won’t stop until they have succeeded.
Love can be as intoxicating as any substance, often described as a drug because of its profound effect on our emotions and behaviors. Growing up without the nurturing affection many take for granted shapes how we approach relationships in adulthood. When someone experiences a lack of proper love in childhood, they may unconsciously overextend themselves in relationships, hoping to receive what they never had. This dynamic can lead to an intense need for reassurance and connection, causing the feelings of excitement and peace when near the loved one to become overpowering. The metaphor of love as a drug is fitting — it creates highs from emotional closeness, nervous anticipation, and the joy that comes from feeling seen and needed. Yet, this dependence can also lead to vulnerability and hurt when the love is unreciprocated or inconsistent. In my own experience, I've noticed that surrendering completely to someone’s soul, as described in the text, involves a deep level of trust and understanding that unfolds over time. Love becomes a journey of exploring not just the other person but also one’s own emotional landscape. Each lesson in understanding the beloved’s complexities mirrors healing past traumas and learning to set boundaries. Furthermore, when love is taken for granted or assumed to be always present, it can lead to neglecting essential rituals like saying goodbye, which are crucial for emotional grounding. This can create a false sense of security that love will return regardless of behavior, sometimes leading to heartbreak when it doesn’t. The idea of unraveling each other’s mind, walking through the twisted hallways to find 'crumbs' left behind, recognizably speaks to the painstaking work of building intimacy. It requires patience, empathy, and resilience to master one lesson only to face the next. For those who have experienced emotional deprivation, this process can be both terrifying and thrilling — a test of whether true love is possible and sustainable. Ultimately, understanding the funny, complex, and sometimes painful nature of love helps us grow. It teaches us to cherish healthy connections, recognize unhealthy patterns, and work towards love that uplifts and sustains rather than diminishes. Sharing these personal reflections can offer hope and encouragement to those navigating similar emotional terrains.
