Get by with highs
POEM/SONG 53
These pills make me not feel, I just want something that is real. But I can’t, I’m in a different place, that you cannot ever face. I’m so strong, gotta deal with all this shit, don’t know how I’ll ever get through it. It’s the light, I’m always searching long for it. Can I afford it? When I don’t, I throw a fit. Damn, another day in this lonely world, and there’s only one, so I can’t run away. Only look to the past, was my last happy place. Damn, I am now in a race, very last place. All my loved ones get away, and I just stay, never follow, sorta getting hollow. I’m a black hole, destroying everything in my way, even the beautiful light. It is so damn dark. Well, I am the dark. Everywhere I go, it’s a slippery slope. I’ve lost all my hope, never fucked with a pope, ‘cause I’ve never had faith. Inside me, there’s a wraith, ‘cause I’m dead inside. I wanna feel alive, no matter how I try. It all ends the same, yeah, I die, I get fried. Don’t ever have to think why, why I die, why I die. I don’t care, I don’t try, I get by with my highs.
The journey through emotional struggles is a common theme in many artistic expressions. In this powerful poem, the narrator visits the challenges of loneliness, despair, and the battle against inner demons, resonating with anyone who has faced similar battles. The imagery of darkness and light serves as a metaphor for the human experience, highlighting the contrasting emotions that shape our lives. Whether through poetry, music, or art, exploring these feelings can often lead to catharsis and understanding. By sharing stories of pain and triumph, we create a sense of solidarity. Many readers find comfort in knowing they are not alone in their feelings. The healing power of words can also influence mental health perceptions and encourage discussions about seeking help. Readers are invited to reflect on their emotional journeys and consider the importance of expressing these feelings creatively. This piece stands as a reminder that amidst the struggle, there is always a light to pursue, no matter how faint it may seem.