Update: Finally don’t Gaf
Okay i’m back, Hey girl Hey to all my new followers. So update, I’m growing!! I adopted about a month ago & I feel like my baby is opening me up to a new avenue of love and rewriting how I care for others (and even myself). As a retired people pleaser and someone who Was comfortable with Pain, I am proud to say that I have finally left my abusive relationship after 5 years of endurance. Am I sad, upset or lonely? Absolutely not. I feel very free and motivated to move forward. This new chapter of my life has pushed me to let go of Perfectionism and favoring a victim mindset. I no longer want to believe that I am incapable of showing myself or believing that I am unqualified to be more than a Sad Girl. Allowing my past and present hardships to define who I am and Will be is no longer my story! I’m tired of being hurt, I’m tired of crying, I’m tired of giving out of Season & I’m tired of Only dreaming.
Don’t get me wrong my life has never been easy & I still go through Sooo many emotions daily. I am still confused about who I am or how I am going to transfer my perception of the world from my mind and my heart into reality BUT being a victim is no longer my story. Adopting my dog has been the best decision I’ve ever made because I can truly be vulnerable at no cost. I CAN Move on & not feel sorry about it, not because I’ve been hurt or mishandled but because I now have the opportunity to see the flaws within my Love. I watch what I say to my dog, I speak baby talk, I am available, I am attentive, I am (babystepping into being) more Selfless. I am capable of love despite not having much experience with it. AND the crazy thing is I never wanted (and still don’t) want kids lol. Sometimes, all you need is one last little kick in the face to stand up for yourself!
On a lighter note I’m obsessed with reading again & finding more diverse ways to approach Silence. The best thing about my experience reading this novel is I have no idea how this is going to end. I didn’t explore the plot or characters beforehand because the Virgo in me lives for the experience. I live for suspense so I Have to develop an analysis on my own which I will share very soon!
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