My life feels like a mess right now
I dropped out of high school, and I only got my first job this year… which I just lost. I worked at McDonald’s until last week, they fired me because I couldn’t get better at the job. My mom helps me out with money, but I have to ask her permission to buy anything. If I’m out and see a pair of jeans I like, I gotta text or call her first. It’s so embarrassing, I feel like a kid again.
I only have one real friend I hang out with, and I can’t help but envy her. She’s a year younger, but she has a degree, a real career, and a boyfriend. When she comes over, my mom lights up, finally, someone to talk to about “adult stuff.” I feel like such a loser. And on top of that, I think I’m ugly and fat.
I look like an ogre, plain and simple. I hate looking in the mirror, and some days? I hate being me. Does anyone else ever feel like they’re falling behind everyone else?
You are not an ogre. Not everyone has a straight line path to careers or adulting. Perhaps try a job like retail or anything else that’s totally different from food? Maybe you haven’t found a good industry for you. Please get your GED so that you can eventually get more education and training. Also, have you considered trade school? It’s not free but you will have far less debt than for a 4 year degree. If you’re not sure what to do in trade school, go to your local community college for help with a skills and interests survey. You’re young and pretty with options to explore!