D-195
Anything can happen in 195 days.
Many things happened in just 4days even.
I wonder why is it so hard to not want to carry on?
Why is not wanting to live a long life a taboo subject?
Currently, my biggest holdback is the aftermath, which ironically I wouldn't be around to clean up.
I've come to the conclusion that only something beyond my control and manipulation is the only way to go.
That way, no one gets blamed,
No, because of you, she turned out this way.
If only you ___, this wouldn't have happened.
No. Drama.
But I know the people around me very well. And i know that it will not simply die down (pun intended) with the blinding fact that Ms girl just didn't want to carry on anymore. Ms girl is tiredddddd.
Let Ms girl go in peace.
(curious to find out if indeed we do go in peace or whether the nonsense happening cause us to hang around)
But anyway, anything can happen in 195days.
(please dont report me for airing my thoughts.)
Living through a period like 195 days can bring profound shifts in one's perspective. From personal experience, I’ve noticed how quickly circumstances can change—sometimes drastically in just a few days. The author’s expression of feeling “tired” and struggling with the aftermath resonates deeply with anyone who has faced intense emotional battles. It’s important to openly acknowledge how difficult it can be to confront feelings about not wanting to continue, especially when societal or familial expectations make such thoughts taboo. This silence often adds to the weight, making the internal conflict even more isolating. Moreover, the anticipation of the aftermath—the impact on loved ones and the 'clean up' after one’s absence—can create an overwhelming sense of responsibility that traps many in their pain. One approach that helped me was focusing on what remains beyond personal control, allowing room for compassion without blame or drama. It’s a freeing thought that no one has to carry the burden of fault, and that peace can come without conflict. While contemplating whether we truly 'go in peace' after such struggles, it’s clear that seeking support, whether through therapy, close friends, or community, is crucial. Sharing your thoughts safely can lessen the weight and help find new reasons to hold on, even amid profound exhaustion. Remember, it’s okay to acknowledge your struggle honestly. Conversations about these topics, though uncomfortable, reduce stigma and open pathways to healing. Although the journey is deeply personal, you are not alone in feeling this way, and there are people and resources ready to help.