I Had No Choice but to Leave Her Behind
I went to the dentist today for a second opinion on a problem tooth. What I didn’t realize was how much pregnancy had changed my body—and how much more this appointment would end up showing me.
When I walked in, the receptionist was this pretty Black woman with a soft but confident tone. Warm, welcoming, and full of energy. As she checked me in, we got to talking about divorce since insurance always changes after situations like that. She said to me, “Oh yes, divorce. I’ve been through it. I had to divorce something else too.” She gave me this look like I should’ve known what she meant. I heard her clearly, but I didn’t understand, so I just smiled and went on to sit down.
A little later, the assistant called me back and even got my name a little off—Christin instead of Christian. I corrected her, and she laughed it off before telling me the dentist would be in shortly. I sat down and ended up dozing off—what felt like 30 minutes was really about 7.
The dentist walked in, a sweet and enthusiastic woman, maybe Filipina. She immediately made me feel comfortable. I apologized for falling asleep, explaining that my little ones keep me up at night, but she smiled and told me never to apologize. She was a mom of three small kids herself, still breastfeeding, and she completely understood. Honestly, I was impressed—here she was, a full-time dentist and full-time mom. She called me a superhero, but really, I thought the same about her.
She introduced me to her assistant, who, funny enough, had the same last name as me. The two of them clearly enjoyed working together. We all got to talking about life, and before long, divorce came up again. The assistant shared her story and said the exact same thing I’d heard earlier: “I had to divorce something else too.”
I was caught off guard. Twice in one day, the exact same words.
On the way home, I kept replaying it in my head. Then, as I shared the experience with my mom, I realized what they meant. Divorce isn’t just leaving a marriage. Divorce is leaving behind a version of yourself. She may have stayed quiet, allowed mistreatment, ignored betrayal, and didn’t know her worth. You divorce her.
And who do you become after that? Well… that’s the journey I’m on now.
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Divorce is often viewed simply as the legal end of a marriage, but it frequently represents a deeper emotional and psychological transformation. The phrase "I had to divorce something else too," as experienced twice in one day by the author, captures this profound truth perfectly. It suggests that beyond ending a relationship, there is also the necessity to separate from a former version of oneself — the person who tolerated mistreatment, doubted their own worth, or ignored their needs. This inner divorce can be one of the most challenging parts of the healing process. It demands recognizing and embracing vulnerability, acknowledging past pain, and cultivating self-compassion. Many find that this journey leads to discovering a stronger and more authentic self, one that refuses to settle for less and pursues fulfillment on their own terms. An essential step in this personal growth is understanding that self-worth is not defined by relationship status. Whether you are a parent juggling responsibilities or someone rediscovering life’s purpose, like the dentist and mother described in the article, each person’s story demonstrates resilience. These real-life examples illustrate that managing multiple identities—parent, professional, partner, and individual—while redefining oneself is both demanding and inspiring. Support networks, whether through friends, family, or online communities centered on #DivorceRecovery and #FindingMyWorth, play a critical role in this transformation. Sharing experiences helps normalize the complexities of divorce and encourages those going through similar transitions to find hope and solidarity. In short, "divorcing her" is a metaphorical process of leaving behind the confines of a past self shaped by unfulfilling or harmful circumstances. It is about saying goodbye to the quiet suffering and stepping bravely into a new chapter defined by self-discovery, emotional strength, and renewed purpose. The journey is ongoing but embracing it fully can lead to a much more empowered and beautiful version of oneself. This perspective can inspire others facing similar challenges and illuminate the path from brokenness to beauty, reinforcing that stronger life awaits beyond divorce.
