Self Trust
I’ve been reflecting on the energy of Trust lately. How does one trust themselves… after years of self-abandonment? Because somehow I’ve managed to rebuild myself from the ground up. Along the way, I’ve reclaimed: Self-trust.
Not the kind of trust we place in others…
but the quiet, essential trust we place in ourselves and how that trust is the foundation of everything.
To truly trust God…
To trust life…
We have to first trust ourselves.
And for a bit there, I didn’t.
When I entered my marriage years ago, I unknowingly gave up a part of myself the part that held intuitive authority. I stopped hearing my inner voice clearly.
Stopped consulting my higher self. Muted that quiet, sacred whisper inside because I thought I had to…
to belong, to survive, to keep things “working.”
That’s when the disconnection began.
And it wasn’t repaired overnight.
Even my awakening didn’t bring it back right away it flooded my system with too much light, too fast.I accessed realms… visions… Divine Mother… multidimensional truths… but my nervous system wasn’t anchored in safety or sovereignty.
So I looked outside myself again, leaning on a spiritual guide, believing they could see me more clearly than I could see myself.
That wasn’t trust.
That was spiritual dependency disguised as devotion.
Then came the tower. The unraveling.
The surrender of everything I thought I was
including my role as a mother. And from that deep void, something began to rise.
Not in fireworks.
Not through one grand ceremony.
But through micro moments:
🌀Going to the gym and letting my body lead
🌀Saying no to shiny offers that didn’t feel clean
🌀Breathing through grief without needing a conclusion
🌀Catching myself trying to perform and choosing presence instead
🌀Listening to what I needed, and actually honoring it
That’s when trust began returning.Not all at once but consistently.
Like the soil remembering how to hold water after a drought. Like a body learning how to feel again after going numb.
Because trust doesn’t live in the big moments. It lives in the small ones. Every time you choose yourself even in the most ordinary way you’re reactivating something ancient & true inside you.
Self-trust is a critical aspect of personal development that allows us to navigate life's challenges with confidence. Unlike trust given to others, self-trust is rooted in our ability to honor our instincts and make choices that align with our true selves. After experiences of self-abandonment, rebuilding this foundation is necessary for holistic well-being. Many individuals struggle with self-trust, especially after emotionally taxing relationships or situations that lead to disconnection from their inner voice. Reconnecting with oneself often involves acknowledging past wounds and learning to listen to one's needs. In this process, engaging in simple yet impactful actions, such as setting boundaries or practicing mindfulness, can foster self-awareness and acceptance. Building self-trust requires patience and a commitment to daily practices that reinforce positive self-regard. This might include affirmations, journaling, or meditative practices that encourage introspection. As self-trust grows, individuals may find that they are more empowered to make choices that resonate with their true selves, leading to healthier relationships and greater life satisfaction. Furthermore, cultivating self-trust creates a ripple effect: as we learn to trust ourselves, we not only improve our relationship with ourselves but also enhance our connection with others. We become more authentic in our interactions, leading to deeper relationships built on mutual respect and understanding. Ultimately, self-trust is integral to personal growth, allowing us to embrace life wholeheartedly and navigate it with grace and resilience.