Early signs of autism I noticed in my son, Titus

It’s an overwhelming feeling when you start noticing things about your little one that just don't seem quite right. I remember feeling a mix of worry, confusion, and even guilt, wondering if I was just being overly critical. My son, Titus, showed some early signs of autism, and looking back, I wish I'd had more resources that shared real, lived experiences like mine. If you're observing your toddler and seeing behaviors like limited eye contact or a tendency to play alone, please know you're not imagining things, and your concerns are valid. One of the first things that stood out to me was Titus's interaction, or lack thereof, with people versus objects or screens. While other babies might coo and smile readily at family members, he'd often seem to be in his own world. He would spend hours watching television, completely engrossed, even interacting with the characters – cooing, giggling, and giving big loving smiles. But when it came to real people, those interactions were often missing. This wasn't just about not making eye contact; it was a broader pattern of social engagement. He'd appear perfectly content playing by himself, often oblivious to what was happening around him or to attempts to engage him in shared play. This 'playing alone' wasn't just typical toddler independence; it was a consistent preference for solitary activities without much interest in initiating or responding to social overtures. Beyond social differences, I started noticing other unique behaviors. Titus was often enamored by his own shadow, staring at it for long periods. There was also a lot of oral and vocal stimming – repetitive sounds or movements with his mouth – and hand flapping, especially when he was excited or overwhelmed. Even meal times became a source of observation; he’d spend time spinning, flipping, and tapping his food several times before he’d eat it. These sensory-seeking or repetitive behaviors, often called 'stimming,' can be a key indicator. It’s like their bodies are trying to regulate themselves or process information in a different way. When I first voiced my concerns to our pediatrician at 7 months, I was told, "maybe he just likes to rock himself." It's easy to feel dismissed, or like you're overreacting, especially when you’re a new parent. But my gut instinct kept telling me something was different. If you find yourself in a similar situation, please, trust your instincts. You know your child best. Don't hesitate to seek a second opinion or push for further evaluation if your concerns persist. Documenting these observations – when they happen, what triggers them, and how long they last – can be incredibly helpful when speaking with professionals. Early intervention can make a huge difference, so don't delay in seeking support if you have worries. There are many resources available, from developmental pediatricians to early intervention programs. Finding a community of parents who understand can also be a lifeline. Remember, recognizing these early signs isn't about labeling your child; it's about understanding their unique way of experiencing the world and giving them the best possible start. You are a wonderful parent for noticing and for seeking answers.