“Me miran raro por no esconder mi luz.
Creen que ser negro es sinónimo de sumiso.
Pero yo aprendí a mirar de frente,
aunque el mundo siga mirando desde arriba.”
"Memorias de Inkonformidades de un Negrito"🧠🤨💙 Chapter 13 by Bemba de Caimito
Have you ever felt like you had to shrink yourself to fit into someone else's idea of who you should be? That's a feeling I know all too well, especially growing up as 'un negrito' in a world that often tries to put you in a box. The lines from the poem, 'They look at me strangely for not hiding my light. They think being Black is synonymous with submissive. But I learned to look straight ahead, even if the world keeps looking down from above,' resonate deeply with me. It’s a powerful reminder of the internal battle many of us face. For a long time, I struggled with the weight of those expectations. There were moments when I felt pressured to be 'less loud,' 'less opinionated,' or 'less visible' just to make others comfortable. It’s a subtle form of erasure, and it can really chip away at your self-esteem. But eventually, something shifted. I realized that my light, my uniqueness, my Blackness, isn't something to be hidden – it's something to celebrate. Learning to 'look straight ahead' means reclaiming your power. It means owning your space, your voice, and your narrative. For me, this journey of self-acceptance involved a lot of introspection and consciously challenging the biases I encountered. It’s about understanding that your worth isn’t tied to how others perceive you, but how you perceive yourself. It’s about cultivating an inner strength that allows you to stand firm, even against a 'gray wall' of societal pressures. One of the most liberating things was realizing that expressing myself, even through simple things like my style, was a form of defiance. Whether it’s rocking a favorite 'red mesh baseball cap' with a cool 'fish logo' or just wearing a comfortable 'white t-shirt,' it’s about feeling good in my own skin and projecting that confidence. That slight smirk captured in a photo? That's not arrogance; it's the quiet strength of someone who refuses to be anything less than authentic. It's the 'I see you, but I'm not backing down' look. This visual representation became a personal statement. It's not always easy, and there are still days when the world tries to dim your shine. But connecting with others who share similar experiences, reading powerful words like those in 'Memorias de Inkonformidades de un Negrito,' and constantly reminding myself of my inherent worth has made all the difference. Finding a community that uplifts and celebrates your identity is crucial. It provides a safe space to share, learn, and grow without judgment. We have a right to be seen, to be heard, and to shine brightly, without apology. So, if you’re out there feeling like you need to hide your light, remember: your light is your power. Embrace it, nurture it, and let it glow for the world to see!
