To whoever my first future love is.

Growing up, I often found myself distant in relationships, which I later understood was due to my avoidant nature. This emotional avoidance made me realize something profound: despite the many experiences I thought were love, I had never truly been in love with anyone. Recognizing this was both liberating and challenging. It allowed me to understand that love isn’t just about proximity or familiarity—it’s about vulnerability, trust, and the willingness to open your heart despite past fears. My journey taught me that being avoidant doesn’t mean you’re incapable of love; it means you’re protecting yourself until the right person inspires you to lower those walls. For anyone who relates to this feeling, know that it’s okay to take your time. First loves don’t have to come early, and sometimes, what we think is love is just a stepping stone to something deeper. Embracing self-awareness and faith can guide you through this journey, helping you prepare for the genuine connection you truly deserve. I also found comfort in spirituality during this process. The hashtag #jesuslovesyou resonated deeply with me—it reminded me that unconditional love exists, sometimes first in faith before human love arrives. This spiritual foundation gave me hope that when the time is right, my first true love won’t be just a feeling but a transformative experience that also teaches me to love myself fully.