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It really started in August 2023. I lost my cat toast. A lot of you know of her because I posted a lot about her. Then my ex and I went separate ways in November or more or less he left because it was a toxic environment, not only for me, but also for him as well (no hate towards them) I went from living with someone for 6 years almost 7 to living alone. I paid the big phone bill just for them to turn around and get another phone so it was wasted. I paid for their license plate and I paid the rent and I was left with no money and was completely isolated with no car or really any people. I don’t completely blame them because they were also in a moment of desperation to move on but it left me with nothing. Shortly after that, I spent all my holidays alone. I did spend some of Christmas with my exes family, but no one really got me anything and I made my heart sad because I made everyone something. But I guess that’s what happens when they are no longer your family. Shortly after in April I watch my mother passed away, and attend her funeral. She passed days before my her and my father’s anniversary and his 82 birthday.
Don’t get me wrong a lot of good has happened during this time. I am engaged and I am happier, but it was the most overwhelming thing that I’ve ever had to experience with majority of it being by myself because I have such a hard time letting people in I remember begging my ex to go see my mother because she wanted to see him before she passed and having to look into her eyes and tell her that he was not going to come, was one of the most heartbreaking things I had to experience during all the things , it made me feel like I’m the one who took away her last one that she loved.
I would like to restate again, though that everything is a lot better than it used to be. Things are not easy, but I have learned from everything and will continue to grow as a person. I’m glad that I’m still here.
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