Reality
I got to see my dad the other day and chat about things going on. I didn't realize how much I avoided explaining how I'm trying to save money just so people's opinions don't change.
I constantly get messages from family that I'm being over dramatic and just need to such it up. This coming from people that think depression can be corrected with positivity, and Bible quotes. It's not that simple or easy. Why would I choose this like for myself?
Reality though?
Last year I was scared to ask for help with food so I tried dog food since my fridge was empty (tis gross). Now I occasionally skip days, but I eat at least once a day.
To keep water bill low I do laundry every other month, and I'm honestly just too depressed to shower on a regular basis.
I didn't drive any where, and one day a week I get to go to the bfs house to see a different set of walls which is nice.
I got a massive carpet stain in my apartment that needs fixing, and I've tried but I didn't know how to remove it and it's just getting worse. Honestly just reminds me of how I feel about my existence.
I'm at the point job hunting that I might as well start my own business and hope that turns out better this time than the last LLC I had. Getting certified as a bookkeeper will help, but not required so that's a bonus. Also I'll be able to work from home which will keep my anxiety lower.
To anyone that actually reads these: Thanks for listening. I'm just tired of survival mode, and guilt, and shame? Enjoy a cute photo of my dog.
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Hang in there. I know life seems to be dishing out extra scoops to everyone right now. I have been seeing a lot of remote job ads recently. I will forward them to you. Can we send you a care package or walmart delivery? ❤️