very true, im sorry you have had so many people close to you has used their insecurities to hurt you, to bring you down to their level. No matter how hard you try to keep your head above the water to keep the person you are inside you from changing their insecurities, jealousy, their hate for the people who only wants a peaceful happy life with someone who means more to you, gives you a happy family who loves and helps each other, to protect those who are family from everyone surounding you because no matter what you do, no matter how much & how often you help the people around you, no matter how special you are how, how sincere & caring you are they will always try to take all the good, love, passion to help those less fortionate than you, they will still want to take your heart, kindness, and your generosity to deplete all the will you have to Do GODS MOST IMORTANT COMMANDMENT. HE WANTED EVERYONE "TO TREAT EVERYONE AROUND YOU AS YOU WANT EVERYONE TO TREAT YOU.