He played with my feelings and I couldn't move on
Honestly, it is never easy to forget someone I liked for 3 years, even though we’re from different schools.
I really want to forget him, but my memories of him are still so intact that I can remember almost every single moment we shared.
I dreamt of him 2 days ago and cried because I missed him so much.
It was 2 a.m.
In the end, I woke up and unblocked him on Carousell. ( I’ve already blocked him on every other social media platform.)
I had real human feelings for him with emotions unlike my ex, who was just playing with my feelings.
I still remember what my ex said back in Jun 2025 : During his first year of school, there were two girls who liked him at the same time, and both of them were best friends.
One of them gave up on him and let her best friend have the chance instead.
I also remember that my ex went to Taylor Swift’s concert last year, and Sabrina Carpenter was one of the guest performers.
When I asked if Sabrina was pretty since I’m a fan of hers, he replied, “She’s pretty,” while cuddling with me.
Even though these were just little moments, I really cherished them.
Right now, knowing that he’s a womanizer and got a new gf just 4 days after breaking up with me and even lied to me when I was with him.
I really want to forget all those memories I have with him.
Pic 2 - 3 shows our convo back in May 2025, where he begged me to become his gf.
I wish life were that simple: just find someone new and move on.
But I couldn’t.
Even after meeting other people in real life, I still don’t have feelings for anyone else but him. ( Maybe I have a tiny crush on my ex-crush from my tertiary school, Daniel, because he was so kind he was even willing to send me screenshots of my ex’s Instagram story to open my eyes about who my ex really was.
However, imagine meeting your own classmate , Daniel , who was in the same class as you last year.
I met up with him a few days ago to catch up, but I couldn’t even recognize him at all, even though I used to have a tiny crush on him back then.
* All names in this post are fictitious.
Getting over someone who played with your feelings is often much harder than just deciding to move on. From my experience, the pain lingers because it’s not just about what they did—it’s about the memories and emotions you shared that feel so real and personal. When someone lies or quickly replaces you with someone else, it cuts deep and can make you question your self-worth. I realized that blocking him on social media wasn't enough; I had to face the flood of memories that kept replaying. Even unblocking him on Carousell brought up mixed emotions I wasn’t prepared for. One important step I've found helpful is allowing yourself to fully feel the hurt without judgment, whether it’s through crying, journaling, or talking to someone you trust. It's okay to grieve the relationship and the future you thought you would have. Another thing that helped me was recognizing that my feelings toward others faded not because I wasn’t interested, but because my heart was still processing what I had lost. Meeting new people didn’t instantly erase the past. It takes time to heal and to open your heart again. Interestingly, receiving support from an unexpected friend who showed me my ex’s true character helped me see things more clearly. Sometimes, awareness of the other person's behavior brings relief rather than pain. Lastly, finding ways to reconnect with yourself and your passions can slowly rebuild your confidence. Whether it’s embracing hobbies, making new friends, or focusing on personal goals, these small steps pave the way toward moving forward. Remember, if you’re struggling, you’re not alone. Healing from someone who played with your feelings is a gradual process that requires patience and self-compassion.
