Admitting to myself “I’m burned out”

I remember in 2018 I received a cheque for $100,000.

I was a FA 3rd year in the business and it was my best year yet. But I looked at the piece of paper and didn’t feel ANYTHING - no pride no joy no satisfaction

I just kept asking myself “am I broken? Is it me? What’s wrong with me?”

My mum is an FA- has been for 20+ years and still is. She loves her job and it gives her so much joy but for me it just drained me so much even though I loved making an impact in my clients’ lives.

It took me 6 months to admit to myself that I was burned out cos I kept feeling guilty towards my clients. “They trusted me so I need to stay on and fight for them”

I couldn’t share any of this with my colleagues because they all felt that being an FA was the best job in the world.

Then I won a writing competition with Seek Sophie out of nowhere and I got sponsored to go to Sri Lanka for a month. For that whole month I experienced a side of me I never knew was even there. That trip changed me.

I came back, quit my job and started a healing process from burnout. Another year later, got divorced, left SG to eat pray love and continued the journey towards understanding myself and figuring out what I want life to mean and be like.

Self development is not selfish. Because I learned how to fill my own cup, now my relationships are stronger. I healed my mother wound, and am also building my dream academy teaching others how to live authentic and aligned lives. To create out of a state of BEING not DOING.

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