Becoming Self-Sufficent with God
God has been working with me this year especially, we are six months into 2024 almost 7, and the lesson now is -
Unbecoming Self-Sufficient to Become God Sufficient
My cry for years has been that I want to be self-sufficient in more ways than one, and I worked too hard to accomplish it to go through ANOTHER period of losing everything. Everything pulled down to the studs everything!
My response...You know what, forget it. At some point, I have to understand that I am a failure and will never be anything despite the gifts, talents, favor, and skills I have. At that point, I think God smiled.
Which now leads me to becoming God Sufficient; he had to undo everything because where was He in it?
If I built my life on the lies others paved my way with then how could it ever be 100% stable. It will fall apart again and again and again - from small to big losses.
This month, I have been reading my June reads, and something almost slapped me; in the book "God Ment it for Good," chapter 6 called A New Kind of Trial where talks about Joseph being tempted by sexual sin. Now, the part that stuck out to me was this passage: "Yet another principle emerging from this part of the story is that we should not expect a new kind of trial to come our way unless we have made it through the old one with dignity. If we are experiencing a kind of trial such as we have never had before, God has paid us a high compliment. I fear there are Christians who never have a truly new trial - it is the same old kind. That is partly because God, in his kindness, continues to allow a chance to dignify the old trial by working through it without murmuring and complaining. The purpose is to come through tried as Gold. If we do, then we are able to move on to a new vista or a new horizon. It means we have passed the test."
WHEN I SAY, I threw that Kindle....cause come on.
I knew I was the issue I just didn't know what the issue was! I was reading, implementing, and removing habits/people/idols, and still, here we are.
It wasn't until a month ago it started to click. No matter what I do, I can't do it alone. This depressed me because now my son's father had passed away in December, a relationship fell apart, I had to move, my health up and down, and I was truly doing it alone. How else was I supposed to feel? But I missed the part in the lesson where I NEEDED God. I didn't need more people around me...I needed less. I didn't need to talk about my situation, I needed God. I needed to bring it to him, complaints and all, so I could grow and receive the understanding. Now I will say, each lesson that has been coming around is new...and I love that for me right now. God loves me; he loves me enough that he wants me to grow and not deal with the things that confuse me into believing that God wants what's worse for me.
This change is becoming, and it's some tests that I am still studying for and trying to pass, but a lot of what I used to deal with isn't my current, and for that, I'm so thankful. #Lemon8Diary
Stepping into a season of truly becoming God sufficient has meant revisiting foundational truths, especially when life throws unexpected curveballs. You know, those moments when you feel utterly alone and everything you thought you built crumbles? For me, discovering specific scriptures during these times has been like finding a lifeline, guiding me from a place of self-reliance to leaning fully on God. Take, for instance, Revelation 21:3-4, which speaks volumes about God's intimate presence and ultimate comfort. It says, 'Look! God’s dwelling place is now among the people, and he will dwell with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. ‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’ or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.’ When I was grappling with immense loss – my son’s father passing, a relationship ending, health struggles – I felt utterly overwhelmed and, frankly, like a failure. This verse reminded me that God isn't distant during my pain; He promises to be right here, in the midst of it. It’s a profound comfort to know that in God, there's a promise of an end to all suffering, and that He actively wipes away our tears. It shifts my perspective from 'I have to fix this all myself' to 'God is with me, and He will see me through.' This promise is a core reason why pursuing God-sufficiency is so vital – it offers a hope and presence that no amount of personal striving ever could. Then there’s 1 Corinthians 9:8, which, though seemingly focused on law and apostleship, really spoke to me about God's consistent principles and provision. The verse itself asks, 'Am I speaking in human terms? Does not the Law say the same thing?' While the context is Paul defending his rights, for me, it highlighted the unwavering nature of God's truth. My journey had been plagued by building on foundations that ultimately crumbled because they were based on human expectations or self-imposed pressure. Becoming God Sufficient means trusting that God's ways, as revealed in His word, are not just suggestions but reliable blueprints for life. It's about understanding that He provides for those who serve Him, not just materially, but with wisdom, strength, and guidance. This verse nudged me to question my own human logic and lean into divine wisdom, trusting that God’s principles are universally true and ultimately lead to stability and peace, far beyond what my own efforts could achieve. Combined, these verses, along with the broader message of God's enduring love and grace, have been instrumental in my ongoing process of *Becoming God Sufficient*. It’s a daily decision to surrender my need for control and trust in a God who not only promises comfort in suffering but also provides clear, consistent guidance. It’s not about being perfect, but about continually turning to Him, even with complaints, knowing that He loves me enough to want me to grow and experience a life truly dependent on His boundless grace.
Nice Testimony ! Amen to that❤️🔥