Finally committed to no contact…

It's incredibly brave to finally commit to no contact, especially when your heart is still so invested. I completely understand that feeling of needing to do it suddenly, almost as a self-preservation instinct. It sounds like you're going through immense grief, and it's totally valid. Cutting off contact with someone who was your 'first everything' and an engagement is a monumental step, and it's okay to feel overwhelmed. One of the hardest parts is that persistent worry about how they're handling it, isn't it? It's a natural byproduct of still caring, but it's also a trap that can pull you back into unhealthy patterns. You asked 'what are things you say or do to stop yourself from going back to your ex?' This is where building a strong support system and having a clear plan becomes crucial. When I was in a similar place, trying to figure out how to keep it (no contact), I found a few things incredibly helpful. First, I had to block them everywhere. It felt harsh, but seeing their stories or messages, even if innocent, always sent me spiraling. Out of sight, truly helps with out of mind, even if it takes time. Secondly, I wrote down all the reasons why the relationship ended and why no contact was necessary. On days I felt weak or missed them terribly, I'd reread that list. It served as a powerful reminder of why I made that 'finally committed' decision. Another game-changer was redirecting that energy. Instead of obsessing over what they might be doing, I focused on what *I* could do for myself. I picked up new hobbies (learning to paint was surprisingly therapeutic!), spent more time with friends who truly uplifted me, and even started a new fitness routine. It wasn't about erasing them, but about rebuilding my own life and identity outside of the relationship. Remember, grieving is a process, and it’s not linear. There will be good days and bad days. On the bad days, allow yourself to feel those emotions without judgment. Cry, listen to sad songs, or talk to a trusted friend. But then, gently steer yourself back towards activities that bring you a sense of peace or purpose. It's all about navigating this new season with self-compassion. You're not alone in feeling this way. So many of us have been there, wondering 'yes, but how do I actually do this?' It takes immense strength, but every day you stick to it, you're healing a little more. Keep reaching out for support like you are now, because leaning on others makes all the difference.