Becoming a mom broke and re-made me 🦋
Motherhood felt like a cold plunge in the ocean. No matter how many books I read, how much advice I got-nothing could’ve prepared me for the shock. But the warm sun I felt on my face when I rose back to the surface- I wasn’t prepared for that either. My capacity for feeling had grown exponentially in both directions. The lows were painful, things I’d thought I’d healed from came roaring back begging to be seen. But the pure joy I feel when looking into my child’s eyes is a happiness I had never felt before. It is every cell in my body lit up with love.
Postpartum is hard- there’s no arguing that, but a factor I had never considered was how triggering it would be to my own wounded inner child. I felt grief for her. I cried for her and I chose to do better for my child. A gift, really. In choosing better I was breaking generational cycles, I was healing my lineage and giving my child the parent they deserve. Moms are incredible. I have a whole new appreciation for the strength of women.
I feel such heavy grief and such overwhelming joy all at once- I am infinitely softer and infinitely more ferocious, becoming a mother is sun and moon. Light and dark. Beautiful, complex, and cathartic.
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It's amazing how such a lil person can make you feel all these feelings all at once lol...it's amazing!