Let’s Chat : (Life UPDATE)

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SO, let’s chat yall. (Internal scream😬)

What’s been up with you guys lately?

Well what’s up with me? (GIRL 🥴 tied. I’m so tied)

Anyways:

I wanted to catch everyone up to speed with what is going on with me as of lately.

Yo, October is almost over…damn. 🥲

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❤️‍🔥Lately, I have been extremely uninspired to post.

I have been very much on Lemon8 still and liking content and adding them to my bookmarks and saved lists on my page.

Now, I want to make a video about what I’ve LEARNED about Corporate America: Specifically the healthcare industry. I have a mouth ful to say but I’m going to be posting conglomerates and potentially it will be up on YT.

But I’ve been realizing a pattern of mine which I will talk about in a different bullet point.

Since I’ve been out of a job, I haven’t been inspired to create and or even post. I’m a Sag midheaven ♐️ and a lot of my inspirations and ideas come from who I am interacting with and when brainstorming at my place of employments.

Still researching how to put that formula into my content creation. I think I have an idea but I will definitely post about it on Lemon8 when I realize that’s what it was and I sure I have a CLEARLY CONSCIOUS idea as to why. lol (🧡🍑) it will definitely be a post on how to tap, heal and better that aspect as well.

🌻 Secondly, I hate being “The Help”. I hate not having for myself and I hate depending on others:

my text-book narcissistic mother decided she wanted to “cut off” supply to help me when she wasn’t really helping me. The money was helpful at times but she only gave me scraps of money.

As a millennial, I’m sorry I don’t feel I need to give my all at jobs when they treat me like garbage and if I choose to leave, fuck it I will LOL da fuq? Always. My north node is Scorpio ♏️ and a lot of that has to deal with asking those for help. I’m not excusing that behavior but I had cut her off 3 years ago and the still put my pride aside and asked for help.

Narcissist are very entitled and self centered. She tried to use my kids as a way to tell herself she shouldn’t help me because I didn’t want my mom seeing my kids.

Backstory: let’s just say when I had my first son at 22, my narc mom had the tendency to constantly throw at me calling CPS and DCF on me and was constantly threatening to have my son taken from me and I had not done anything to my mom but she was deranged y’all 😭

Like……words can’t describe how messed up in the head I’ve been about my life and still wondering why when I look at both my two kids and wonder how my narc mom and sociopath father allowed themselves to stay mentally ill.

Luckily, I have great news by next week and I can’t wait to start posting again ^.^

🌑 My life wasn’t together before starting Lemon8.

I made a post one day that I later deleted after a couple seconds and i wasn’t thinking clearly and pretty much crashing out thru social media 😭😭😭 I didn’t want to build my content in that way. I am not my bump in the roads or the situations I am in:

I am who I am supposed once I get out of them.

I made a promise to myself that I would make sure to make things right once my life is back together and when I’m back on track, I promised Oshun (💛) I would dedicate my content going forward to enhancing and expressing the divine feminine, glowing up and building more of my content circulated around what I wanted to represent and display to the masses

❤️‍🔥 I am CONSTANTLY under attack. Another post I will talk about very soon!

I plan to make the newest content within the FOLLOWING but not limited too:

•Protection Spells

•Spell Casting

•Root Work

•Signs of when you are being attacked

•Spiritual meanings to certain symbols

the moment you ask out loud “Hey, I need a sign”

•Other practitioners and ppl who practice the craft attacking you

•Withholding certain information from others in GENERAL

•Quick Tips on protecting yourself in 30mins

•Using Divination to constantly know your opponent’s moves first before they know yours.

When I say, my family is constantly under attack because of a mistake we made in the past, we are now faced with having to protect ourselves and our kids going forward constantly.

I never thought this would be me and my husband’s reality. But it truly is. Trusting people with certain information they shouldn’t know is important. When you step into this world, you unlock worlds never known before and then at times you are faced with adversity 😭

But we are protected by our LARGE spiritual family 🫶🏾🧿🌻💚💜💙🩵🤍

Again, I am not promoting for you guys to use what I say word for word: they are still going to be thru my perspective and what I’ve experienced.

I recommend reading and purchasing books as simple as protection spell books and practicing to keep yourself protected ladies and gents 🧿🪬🌻

🌻 🧿🧿🧿 I’ve been on a SPIRITUAL HIATUS. 🧿🧿🧿

I have been reading, researching and gathering information

One of the things I want to talk about is about soon and about a actual experience that I felt was transpiring was about

DESTINY SWAPPING.

I recently learned about what this is and never realized that I was also a victim of many years and even happening now of people trying to destiny swap my fucking life

Are you bitches fucking sick in the head or well at all? (Figuratively 😂)

Destiny Swapping has been brewing a fear in me that I never knew existed. Like celebrities have been doing it for eons even centuries and that is so fucking scary.

It’s what makes me not want to be famous or be well known at all 😮‍💨

With this information I have been learning that the very same women I thought were my friends have all tried to intentionally do things to get my husband interested, my kids not to like me and even coworkers.

It’s gotten to the point that I’m dealing with heavy imposter syndrome because I don’t know who to trust anymore because of all the information I keep receiving 🙃😭

I’ve been researching and constantly studying my chart and human design chart as well as my kids chart and husband chart and just keeping us in the loops of life.

We have moments where we forget that because (human flesh 😅) but we always make sure we keep ourselves on ten toes

🌑 Lastly, I’m still learning that my MOUTH has been the main perpetrator getting me in IMMENSE trouble and these things happening to me

As cute as it sounds right (HaHa)

I literally talk TOO much.

Like not in a bad way but in a very…..sabotage-y way.

What I learned from Destiny swapping, that when you reveal to much of your plans you pretty much give away what you should just

DO

instead of talk about before it happens.

Social media was LITERALLY designed to STEAL your creativity.

I mean, THINK ABOUT IT?

Why do we feel compelled to constantly express our nature and constantly REVEAL our lives to complete strangers?

We are fucking experiments yall. Lab. Rats.

They take your ideas and monopolize off of it.

There. I said it.

I could be blabbing as always but yeah.

I’m still learning to implement instead of vocalize.

I mean, I pretty revealed MOST of my plans on this “update” because I believe I can still help someone from the information I’m giving.

I tend to go on my “hiatuses” and “vanish” is because my spirit is designed that way. My human design has me that way.

I’m a Scorpio North Node. ♏️ 😅 I’m prone to be mysterious and talk shit I got a damn Gemini Mercury ♊️ all I know how to do is talk my ass off now cause I’ve been

SILENCED all my life.

I just❤️‍🩹 have to be careful what info I share❤️‍🩹 ❓

I plan to get it tatted on my neck or either my wrist 😂

Anyways, lol I’m still learning that talking is good to the extent I need it to be.

I know I will get to a point in m life that I will turn my communication skills into profit because

I’m a fucking ✨ ♻️ Manifesting Generator ♻️ ✨

And no one can stop my destiny lmao (idk im a practitioner as well. Try me if you want. You might not like the end result)

Also, I did a reading on myself where I found out that I attract a lot of Freeloaders or Leeches and that means I’m pretty much taken advantage of with my time and my effort to give give and give my wisdom and knowledge and receive nothing in return.

Information is free yes! But if I would charge them? Half of them wouldn’t even pay for it.

In this case, the information I would provide and I don’t receive anything reciprocated in comparison is the reason I’m learning to close my mouth on more IN-DEPTH plans lol.

In this case as well it could also be the men I’ve been involved with in the past who would only “freeload” me into sex and never return the reciprocal exchange of orgasm and then get upset when I wasn’t blowing up their phones or “exaggerating my love” over them like are you dumb! 😂 (dramatic part of the post)

Point proven, I’m learning to shut my mouth still on things that should only have PRESSURE and ACTION applied to them.

Ashé 🧿🧿🧿🪬🩵💛

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What’s been going on with yall though?

I’m clearly a space to express too cause I’m no hater and I love when ppl are comfortable expressing to me.

It makes me feel like fam bam to them 😂

Get me up to speed with you all. I’m so In tune 🙃😁

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