✨Self reflective bits✨
2025 has been a haze—like waking up mid-dream and not knowing which way is forward. I was fired a few months ago, and since then it’s been instant coffee, half-hearted prayers, and quiet survival.
It feels strange—selfish, even—to name my struggle while the world is burning. There are literal genocides happening in real time as I type this, and here I am, grieving a job (oh woe is me) and trying to piece myself back together.
Still, gratitude lives here too…
Photos, in order:
📷 Taken the day after I lost a job I gave too much of myself to. It was beautiful and brutal. You can see the unraveling in my eyes if you look close enough.
📷 Zelda—my tiny guardian, always choosing the warmth of my laptop over any luxurious cat bed I’ve purchased.
📷 “Brown Skin White Minds” A book that’s awakened something in me. I’m stunned by the silence in my own lineage, and I’ve made a quiet promise to go back —reclaim, relearn, and honor the blood that flows through me. 🇵🇭
📷 “Sacred Woman” Another book I drift in and out of like tides. I’ve been searching for the sacred in my womanhood, trying to hear the parts of me that don’t speak in words. This book helps me listen with intention.
📷 League of Legends. My guilty escape, no explanation needed.
📷 A meme because, why tf not.
📷 Another snapshot of me, tangled in the quiet chaos of an existential unraveling.
📷 Lastly—though anything but least—a box of roses, impossibly vivid, arriving on the very day I was let go. No sender. No message. Just petals soft as spells, blooming like a secret. A sign? A whisper from the unseen? An omen or an offering—I’ll never know. Perhaps some magic isn’t meant to be explained.
If your eyes have lingered this long, thank you—truly. I hope the world has met you gently.
And if it hasn’t, I hope you’re wrapping yourself in the tenderness it forgot to give.
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In times of turmoil, self-reflection can feel both necessary and indulgent. Many individuals find themselves grappling with existential questions against the backdrop of global crises. Literature emerges as a powerful ally in this journey; books like *Brown Skin White Minds* examine identity and heritage, sparking dialogue about lineage and culture. Similarly, *Sacred Woman* resonates with those exploring the sacred facets of femininity, inviting readers to listen to their inner selves. Engaging with such texts not only helps process personal grief but also cultivates a deeper understanding of one’s place in the world. Moreover, finding joy in simple pleasures, such as a beloved pet or favorite video game, can provide much-needed respite during challenging times. Engaging in community discussions, like those seen in the #girltalk or #reflections challenges, adds another layer of support and shared experience, fostering connections that remind us we are not alone in our struggles. Ultimately, amidst chaos, embracing reflection empowers individuals to reclaim their narratives, intertwining personal growth with compassion for the wider world.
For a book to awaken the sacred woman within you, read Proverbs... all of it... over and over again. Drift in and out of proverbs with the knowledge that ALL Scripture testifies of Jesus. Meditate on the Christ, who is God's Wisdom (1Corinthians 1:30) and then read about God's Wisdom from the Proverbs, until you see the fullness of Christ, remembering that Christ, being a man, is synonymous with Wisdom, which is a woman. That in Christ, there is neither male nor female (Galatians 3:28), but all are one in Him by One Spirit, One Life, One Faith, One Baptism, One Sacrifice, One Hope, and One Promise of God. As you explore the book of Proverbs, remember that Wisdom is feminine, a blessed woman, a holy daughter, a righteous virgin, and as you read, remember that the entire book ends in Chapter 31, which is all about the most sacred woman that can exist... a faithful wife. The Church is the wife of Christ (2nd Corinthians 11:2, Ephesians 5:25-29, Revelation 19:6-8, Revelation 22:17) and is the epitome & core symbol of a sacred woman. When I say Church, I don't mean a denomination... I'm not talking Catholic or Protestant or whatever... rather, I mean that all who love Jesus and have faith in the gospel of Christ and love others as Christ taught are all together like the perfect woman, the sacred virgin, the holy bride. And a groom and bride become One flesh (Genesis 2:24, Ephesians 5:31) when they marry one another. So when reading Proverbs, remember how Wisdom, a sacred woman, is like a bride to a sacred man, who is her groom. So, just as Jesus the man is the feminine wisdom of God to us, so too is a godly woman like the wisdom of God to her man, if she lives in accordance with Proverbs 31. So enjoy reading Proverbs and remember that no man or woman are truly sacred on their own, for all wisdom and sacred existence dwells in the unity and love that can only exist with the 2 living as 1 in holy matrimony. Holy matrimony is the sacredness of wisdom.