real I feel like a fucking disaster and disappointment to my dad

I wanna disappear so bad. I wanna run away and never be seen again. I’m tired of getting bullied. I’m tired of getting abused. I’m tired of getting made of fun. I’m tired. I’m so fucking tired I feel numb is so hard to get out of the bed in the morning and get ready for school. School is prison. You’re forced to go there every day of your most of your life I just wanna end it all