emotional piece of mine
I was feeling so many emotions and feelings at once that all I could do to understand them was make this artwork. I want to be honest I grew up with so much trauma because I was emotional and mentally and verbal abuse, and it didn't stop unstill three years ago. the same night my mom passed away, but she didn't do it. she was the only one who protected me. I never had real family growing up. I arent talking about this to single out the people who did it or make anyone feel sorry for me. but I realize I am probably arent the only one who has been through something like that. and I show my past and those memories in my artwork sometimes. what people dont know know is when you go though that you question your worth alot, feel like you dont know who you are, thoses person or people words become your own thoughts and you start to be become your own worse critic, you experience self hatred, abandonment, dont know what healthy love feels like, or what healthy relationship looks like, questioning people when they do something nice for you for no reason, low self esteem, very low confidence, shame, and like it was your fault and you deserve to be treated that way, your mind becomes a war zone. my past cause me to have ptsd. I am working on myself and trying to change the way I see or feel about myself and self care. but I still have panic attacks and anxiety attacks triggered by memories of the past and nightmares, but I won't let the past control my life anymore, but healing from it will take my life probably. my art helps me heal and makes me feel like me and so insanely happy. I use to ask myself who I would be if I never went though that but never found the answer but I know now my happiness is my own and I want to let go of old habits and I want to become stronger and become the person I always wanted to be but I hold myself back because of fear and scary of letting others down or think it easier to not try at all. but I am wrong. I need to unleash try. my past is part of my story, but I am more than what I went through, so this is the last time I will post talk about it. I dont mind helping others go through what I did. but I need to let go of it little to find my own happiness and create the life I want and make my dreams come true. where there is darkness, there is light too. I turned my negative words of feelings I felt into positive words like I was writing a letter to the old me. that what the background words are. #emotionaldrawing #healingthroughart #traumaart #selfdiscoverythroughart #therapyart
Growing up with trauma and abuse can profoundly affect one’s sense of self and mental health. The impact often extends beyond childhood into adult life, manifesting as PTSD, anxiety, panic attacks, and ongoing struggles with self-worth. Many survivors feel trapped by their past, questioning their value and struggling to understand what healthy love and relationships truly mean. This deeply emotional experience, expressed vividly through artwork, reflects a powerful path of self-discovery and healing. The act of creating art can serve as a therapeutic outlet—transforming painful memories and negative self-talk into something tangible and positive. For many, like the author, turning those internal battles into visual expression allows for a new dialogue with themselves. Writing letters to one’s younger self or embedding encouraging words in artwork can reinforce self-acceptance and personal growth. It’s important to recognize that healing from such layered trauma rarely happens overnight. It is a gradual process involving self-care, patience, and often professional support. Experiences like recurring nightmares and triggered anxiety are common, but the commitment to not let the past control one’s future is a powerful motivator. Embracing art as a form of therapy not only helps to manage symptoms but also fosters resilience and hope. Knowing that there is light amidst darkness is essential for survivors. Many find that while their past shapes them, it does not define them. The courage to try again—despite fear of failure or disappointing others—opens the door to living authentically and fulfilling personal dreams. This journey underscores that happiness is a personal creation, often found in releasing old habits and embracing new perspectives. Sharing such stories and creative works also provides valuable support to others who have endured similar challenges. It builds a community of understanding and encouragement where individuals can learn they are not alone. For those dealing with trauma, therapy through art, self-reflection, and positive affirmations can be transformative steps toward reclaiming their lives and identities.
