MUST READ: Didn't Know How I Was Going To Make It😪
Because one day I want to look back…
and remember what God has done.
This isn’t just a post.
This is my living journal of God’s goodness—the kind of stories I want to share with my son one day. The moments that looked hopeless, and somehow turned into praise. The things I can’t explain, except that God showed up.
I’ll be adding more in the comments as they come to my heart. Feel free to save this if you ever need to come
My Testimonal Journey 🙌🏾👑⬇️
📖 Entry One – A Letter to My 19-Year-Old Self
When I was 18, I had just moved out on my own for the first time. I was struggling — not just with finding myself, but with newly diagnosed mental health disorders: bipolar disorder, anxiety, and OCD. I have no shame in sharing this, because it’s part of my story — and it’s a story many others are quietly living too.
At 19, I was working overnight shifts, which I now know were terrible for my mental health. I was on medication — if I remember right, an antidepressant — but I was still having intense mood swings, constant emotional shifts, and I just felt… lost. I remember lying in bed one day and thinking, “How am I going to do this? How am I supposed to live with this heavy sadness — this dark cloud — every single day?”
It felt impossible. The thought of carrying that burden into my future was overwhelming. I didn't know how I'd ever make it to “older.”
But now… I’m 30. And I did make it.
And not only did I survive those years — I grew through them. I learned who I am. I still take medication, and I still go to therapy. But I also understand myself now. I know how to cope. I know how to manage. I have built a beautiful life — including the most incredible son that I would have missed out on if I didn’t keep going.
I’ve made memories I never imagined I'd get to experience. And I look back at that 19-year-old girl — tired, scared, unsure — and I just want to wrap her in love and say:
“Hold on. You’re going to make it. The heaviness will not stay forever. It will lift. You will smile again. You will laugh. You will feel joy. You will be proud of the life you’ve lived. And it will all be worth it. Do not give up.”
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🙌 Testimony 2 : The $30 That Shouldn’t Have Lasted
I remember a time I had $30 to my name. That was supposed to last me two whole weeks. Day by day, that number got smaller. You’d think I would’ve been panicked… but somehow, I wasn’t.
Every time fear came, I pushed it aside and said, “God’s got me.”
But this time, I didn’t just say it—I believed it.
Trust me...I am not perfect. a lot of times, I say I'm giving it to God... and I don't. I worry myself sick.
I actually thought I was maybe going officially crazy
because that was NOT the case this time. I ACTUALLY gave it to him. I thought yeah..I got barely any money, and I'm not worried...yeah, I've lost it...or maybe this what faith ACTUALLY feels like.
When I was down to about $15, I got a phone call:
I was going to receive $400 for a security deposit I had never been given back. Out of nowhere. Just in time.
God didn’t just provide.
He reminded me that trusting Him works. 🙏
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🔧 Testimony #3 : When My Car Smelled Like Sulfur
Recently, I told y’all about my car situation. It had this horrible sulfur/rotten eggs smell, and I started to get concerned. I spoke with a trusted mechanic, and based on everything he said—it sounded like the catalytic converter.
If you know, you know… that’s no small fix. Parts, labor, time off work—my heart sank a little.
But once again, I handed it over to God.
Later that same day…
My battery died.
And I smiled. Yes—smiled. That meant it likely wasn’t the catalytic converter.
It was a much simpler, cheaper fix.
I went to O’Reilly’s, got it swapped out with no labor cost, and no missed work.
God had made a way—again. 🙌
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If this speaks to you, or you just want a place to come back to when you’re in the waiting… save this post.
Whether it’s $30, a car battery, or a moment of peace in the storm—God still moves. And I’m writing it down.
💬 What’s a small or big way God has shown up in your life lately? Drop it below. Let’s build a wall of praise together
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God has done many many things for me through his Grace and Mercy and I am so grateful 🙌🏾🙏🏾