I am determined to see.
🌿 I remember my first cycle of the Horizon Prison Initiative program at CCI. They asked what we hoped to get from the program. I couldn’t articulate it yet. I said I didn’t know what I wanted—only that I did not want the old things I’d been trying that never seemed to work.
That answer turned out to be enough.
Like much of my life, I didn’t yet know what I wanted. But I knew what I’d been getting wasn’t healthy or beneficial. It was empty. Something had to change. That willingness, more than clarity or confidence, is what Lesson 20 is pointing toward.
“I am determined to see” doesn’t mean I already see clearly. It means I am no longer willing to keep seeing the same way. It’s the decision to stop settling for familiar patterns that lead nowhere new.
This is the end of what M. Scott Peck called laziness—not inactivity, but the refusal to take responsibility for inner life. Peck said this responsibility marks the beginning of psychological and spiritual evolution. Lesson 20 stands at that threshold.
The first step is simple but profound: I recognize my co-creative power and accept the responsibility that comes with it. (Yes—Spider-Man, with great power comes great responsibility.)
I don’t need answers yet. I only need willingness.
I am MovingStill
🌿 MovingStill Challenge:
With great power comes great responsibility… What’s one pattern you’re no longer willing to keep seeing the same way? Drop a comment.
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Reflecting on the concept of being "determined to see," I've found that it resonates deeply with personal growth beyond just spiritual teachings. From my own experience, it represents a pivotal moment when we decide to break free from repetitive cycles that no longer serve us—whether it's unhealthy habits, negative thinking, or limiting beliefs. In the context of the Horizon Prison Initiative program mentioned, this determination is crucial, especially for individuals seeking reentry and rebuilding their lives. It's not about having all the answers; rather, it's about commitment to change and accepting responsibility for how we perceive ourselves and the world around us. This echoes the profound insight from A Course in Miracles' Lesson 20, where the act of wanting to see differently itself initiates transformation. To practice this determination daily, I remind myself throughout the day to notice when old patterns creep back in. Repeating positive affirmations or the phrase "I am determined to see" helps redirect the mind toward new possibilities instead of old wounds. Moreover, this shift encourages psychological and spiritual evolution by demanding discipline in managing thoughts and emotions. It’s the rejection of passivity and laziness in inner life as M. Scott Peck describes—not inactivity but a refusal to dodge responsibility for one's mental state. The real reward emerges when you start perceiving situations, people, and events through this renewed vision. Challenges become opportunities, fear gives way to love, and joy becomes distinguishable from sorrow. If you’re on a similar path, I encourage you to identify one pattern you’re ready to stop repeating and embrace the power that comes with that choice. It’s in this willingness, not perfection, that true progress begins.
