Feeling Real Gangsta
I’m tired of being tried by dudes pretending that they want something solid s d then being narcissistic, gaslighting me, breadcrumbing me or flat out ghosting me.
This is why I haven’t dated or been intimate since December 2022.
It didn’t take a lot of men doing this to me before I recognized patterns I was allowing.
No, I wasn’t intimately (read physically) involved with all of them but it still did enough damage to me to make an impression.
Recently, I decided to go out on a limb and give someone a chance and it’s proving exactly why me making a decision to be solo was pertinent in my healing.
I am not for games AT ALL!
I am already experiencing the ghosting, ignoring my complaints and narcissistic tendencies and it’s a no from me!
i’m not even sure if he has any redeeming qualities because it hasn’t been long enough.
I know one thing, I’m not putting up with it.
So I have absolutely no issues with going back into hiatus and being a solo artist again.
Sure, the prospect of finding someone with everything that I’m going through and having a solid mate was awesome, but I walk in realism.
I can’t afford not to walk in realism.
I have too much at steak when it comes to my mind, body and spirit.
This is what makes me get real gutter, gangster, and ruthless.
Then, nobody stand a chance.
I will definitely keep you posted as this person is definitely calling their self trying to make it turnaround, but I haven’t seen any changes.
The only thing I understand is changed behavior.
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