Youngho adulting day 4
Yk I’m rlly bad at trying to be consistent doing these I wanna do these everything night but it’s random times. I’m sad again but I have to remember I fell for the potential in him and what thought I put in my head I wanted him to be. So that is my fault. I believe it’s a mix of limerence and love but ig I held on to someone longer than usual again bc idk when’s the next time I’ll have this. I like to be alone but I need to get familiar and comfortable and I mean rlly comfortable w/ being lonely but it’s doesn’t need to be depressing. Yet here I still am… so I’m posting abt my toes to attract those type of ppl to show more attraction to my page as a social experiment and even a way to make money selling my content. We shall seee. But for now I am struggling going back and forth between timelines, careers and what’s best for me. Once again it’s my decision and I have to be confident in this. Ik it’s not gonna be easy but duhhhh the work and tittle and pay is all worth it but as of rn tryna to save money , Mae extra money and live a little. Lol even at all of this I still wonder what he’s doing and if he misses me. Or wants to be w/ me 💔 sad and pathetic ik but I’m js a girl. I don’t think I’ll get over ts js like that but if I do then that’s great honestly.
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