On a heartbreaking day, but duty still has to go on.

On a heartbreaking day, but duty still has to go. "

26 December 2025

"How much can't...I have to endure it. "

I just understood the true meaning of this sentence at 25 years old, the day when the pain hit me so hard that the wall of feeling almost collapsed. The only thing I could do at that time was to get myself out of the circle of fun, try to hold my tears as deep as possible, just so no one could see the expanding cracks.

Stepping into private space, everything bursts out like a dam, a storm of regret coming in without direction, a cry that can truly be called "almost heartless," a body trembling, a heartbeat, along with many questions being sent out into the void...How do I get through this breakdown?

I was caught up in the emotional storm for hours, until the tears began to dry up, and consciousness began to work again. The more painful truth was that "duty is still waiting," so I had to keep my ruined feelings in the deepest parts, put up with the excitement, and tell myself that there must be a better solution.

I got up, wiped my face, handled myself, and walked back to duty...Although the heart is still trembling