Don't wait for an apology to free yourself.

Sometimes when we think of someone,

Especially those who used to hurt us

We might have some feelings popping up.

He should feel guilty for us.

He probably wants to apologize to us.

He must have thought about it, too.

Someday he might come back to understand how hurt we are.

These feelings are not wrong at all.

It's a very human feeling.

Because when we used to hurt from someone

The depths of our hearts often want

The pain is visible.

We don't always want to beat it.

Sometimes we just want him to know that.

What happened really affected our hearts.

We want someone to take responsibility.

Wanted the truth to be confirmed.

Want the pain that we are carrying

Not being done like it never happened.

But sometimes,

What we think is "his feelings."

Probably not all his powers.

It could be a piece of our own energy.

That still remains with that.

Part of our hearts may still stand on the same spot.

The spot that used to hurt

The point where no one ever listened.

The point used to be inexplicable.

The point of ever having to carry the truth alone.

And that part might be saying softly,

I still want to get an apology.

I still want him to see that I'm hurt.

I still want someone to confirm that.

What I feel is real.

When we see this

It's not to blame ourselves for thinking of ourselves.

It's not to say that what he's doing doesn't matter.

And it's not to force yourself to forgive immediately.

But it is a deep return to self-sympathy.

See...

Some of us are still waiting.

Some of us still want to be heard.

Some of us still want to be fair.

Some of us still want people to hurt us.

Came back to see that pain with his own eyes.

But maybe

Our freedom may not have begun.

On the day he came back to apologize.

Freedom may begin.

On the day we turned to ourselves and said,

I can see how hurt you are.

I believe that happened.

You don't have to wait for anyone to confirm your feelings.

Because sometimes

Apology that we wait from him

Literally, it could be a door.

That brought us back to apologize to ourselves

Sorry to let myself carry it too long.

Sorry to ever doubt my feelings.

Sorry for waiting for others to certify the pain.

Before allowing yourself to let go.

We may still be hurt. We can still think about the same thing.

There are still heartbreaking days when some memories can spring up.

But we don't need to deposit our remedies.

To the awakening of anyone anymore.

Will he apologize?

Will he understand?

Will he feel guilty?

That's his route.

Our route section

Is to slowly regain his own power.

From the people we used to wait

From the events we've been trapped in.

From an apology that may never come.

And then came back and gently told myself,

"I don't have to wait for anyone to free me.

I can slowly free myself.

By seeing the truth of my heart. "

This could be the beginning of a real remedy.

Not forgetting.

Not to act like it doesn't hurt

It's not an acceptance that what happened was right.

But is not to allow the original pain

Keep our hearts in the same place anymore.

We came back to ourselves.

We listen to ourselves.

We assert the truth to ourselves.

And slowly walk out.

Without waiting for anyone to walk back.