Podcast

Going through personal transformation, especially in motherhood, often feels like stepping through a door that closes firmly behind you—there's no going back to who you were before. This initiation phase is both challenging and crucial. I’ve experienced that unsettling in-between space myself, where familiar habits no longer fit and conversations feel strange. It’s a lonely and confusing time because you’re caught between your past identity and the new self you’re becoming. This discomfort is often misunderstood as a breakdown, but it’s actually an initiation—a deep internal process that prepares you for the next phase of your life. The sense that you can’t “grow into” your next self but rather outgrow your old one resonates profoundly here. Once this awareness shifts, life feels irreversible and the awareness becomes a new lens through which you see the world. What’s vital is learning to embrace this liminal space without rushing through it. In my journey, acknowledging the loneliness and confusion, rather than resisting it, helped me reconnect with my inner strength. It’s about trusting that unraveling your old sense of self is necessary for spiritual and emotional growth. This aligns with the Mother Flame podcast’s theme of “The Door Closes Behind You” as it invites us to accept the moments of initiation in motherhood with grace and patience. If you’re in this phase, know you’re not alone—many modern mothers experience this identity shift amid societal expectations. The key is to honor your evolving self and allow the discomfort to inform your transformation, rather than fear it.