Jesus saves ❤️
Such a wild milestone for me to reflect on 🤍
This post is not to brag or boast…It’s just something I’m proud of and wanted to share.
I debated posting because I coach a lot of young kids who will probably be surprised by this but it’s true, Im an adult that lives in a state where it is legal plus..I am human too. I went to college in Florida & worked at dispensaries when I lived in LA…I became passionate about learning the medical uses for cannabis but I was fully a recreational user.
I started drinking and smoking at a young age and had a lot of fun. Until I had too much fun…wasting my nights away in college and pushing some of my closest friends away. I learned some lessons the hard way but am grateful that all of those friends gave me grace and we are still friends to this day.
I didn’t know God and I was actually intimidated by how much my boyfriend at the time did. I never felt worthy of his love or His love. And maybe that’s why I pushed them away with constant partying and the ridiculous things that come with that.
A friend just spoke of this word the other day and I feel like it’s an appropriate description for what I was doing…”disassociating”
I have no regrets for the life I’ve lived because I believe we are all on our own paths. I’ve apologized for my wrong doings and I’ve learned so many lessons from all the decisions I’ve made, both good and bad.
But again, I’m just reflecting.
I’m sure some of my friends are surprised to see this post coming from me.
I didn’t plan this, this wasn’t a goal, it just kinda happened.
The last time I smoked was actually 2.5 years ago during a really dark time and I instantly had the realization that “I never want to feel this way again”…and that meant removing whatever made me feel that way at that point in time. I’ve never craved it since.
That same summer I went to Miami for a competition and we all went out afterwards…we had a lot of fun but I had no control on my limit I set for myself.. I woke up hungover and had to race to my $200 personal training session.
That’s when I realized…”I don’t need this anymore…it’s doing nothing for me”
And here we are today 🤍
Reflecting on my own experience with overcoming substance use, I can relate deeply to the powerful shift from relying on substances like cannabis and alcohol to achieve a false sense of confidence, to embracing mental clarity and genuine self-worth. For me, the turning point was a blend of self-awareness and the desire for meaningful change rather than external pressure. I too found that disassociating through partying and substance use only masked the real issues I needed to confront. One critical factor in maintaining my sobriety was replacing late nights of partying with early mornings dedicated to self-care and connection with nature. Like many who have made this change, I began appreciating simple pleasures more profoundly—whether it was savoring a morning coffee, spending time outdoors, or enjoying quality food. This lifestyle shift not only improved my physical health but also lifted my mental state significantly. Spiritual growth played an important role in my journey. Getting to know a higher power and recognizing a sense of grace helped me forgive myself for past mistakes and strengthen relationships I thought might have been lost. The fear of feeling unworthy is common yet overcoming it through faith allowed me to embrace love and forgiveness fully. In my experience, giving up substances does not mean sacrificing fun or happiness; rather, it opens the door to authentic memories and meaningful connections. Mental clarity reached new heights when I stopped masking my emotions and learned to sit with and understand them. The bright smiles and renewed confidence that come from this transformation speak volumes about the power of change. For anyone feeling trapped in a cycle of substance use or disassociation, know that growth is possible. Surround yourself with supportive friends who offer grace and encouragement, and don’t be afraid to seek help or embrace faith as part of your healing process. This journey isn’t about perfection but progress, and every step forward counts towards a healthier, more fulfilling life.
