Landen Cole Marrison

Oh my goodness, where do I even begin? Welcoming Landen Cole into our lives on March 10th has been an absolute whirlwind of emotions, and I just had to share a little more about this incredible journey. Holding him in my arms, seeing him sleeping so peacefully, wrapped snugly in his gray and white striped outfit and that soft blanket – it’s a feeling I wish I could bottle up forever. Every tiny yawn, every stretch, every little sigh as he sleeps soundly with his eyes closed, just melts my heart. It’s truly magical to watch him, especially when he’s completely at peace, swaddled up tight. This time around feels so incredibly special, and honest to goodness, a little bittersweet. Landen is our sweet little caboose, our last bundle of joy, and that realization hits me in waves – sometimes happy, sometimes a little tearful. Going through the decision for a tubal removal was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. There were so many tears shed, even afterwards, questioning if I'd made the right choice. But after experiencing the intense pain of natural births, especially with scar tissue making things even tougher, and epidurals failing in the past, it truly felt like the best decision for my health and well-being. It wasn't about not wanting more children, but about listening to my body and ensuring I could be the best mom for the children I already have, without constantly fearing the next painful delivery. And now, here he is, Landen Cole. He’s everything I dreamed of and more. I find myself just staring at him for minutes on end, trying to etch every single detail into my memory. The way he snuggles close, that fresh newborn smell, the tiny movements he makes while dreaming – these are the 'last moments' I'm soaking in with every fiber of my being. I know how quickly this precious, fleeting newborn stage passes, and I never want to forget a single second. It’s a joy mixed with a deep sense of gratitude and a touch of wistful longing for what won't be again. I’m trying to be present in every feed, every diaper change, every late-night cuddle, knowing these moments are finite. The love that fills our home with Landen here is immeasurable. Our family feels complete, and seeing his siblings interact with him, showering him with gentle kisses and curious glances, truly warms my heart. It’s a beautiful chaos, and I wouldn’t trade it for anything. Watching him sleep, wrapped up tight, brings such a sense of calm and completeness amidst the busyness. It’s a reminder that every journey, no matter how challenging, leads to something beautiful. I’m just so utterly grateful for this little blessing and cherishing these precious days with our sweet Landen Cole. If you’re a parent, especially to your 'last' baby, you know exactly what I mean – these moments are truly golden.