Love Hate Relationship
I have been in this constant battle of loving my body for a long time, here I am now 36 and still growing through this love hate relationship. I have had self confidence issues for LONG. I’m honestly sick and tired of it. I just want to love my body. I want to give my inner kid a big hug and just apologize for all the time spent really not loving myself and seeking validation from others when the whole time the only validation I needed was from myself. So I started my healthy living journey today. Working out every day, being more conscious of the things I eat and not eating after 9pm. That’s all I have so far. I’m doing this simply because I want to feel better in my own clothes. While im in this journey it will be a time to reconnect with my body and love the body I have now but working towards the body I want for myself. It will be a journey because consistency isn’t my friend but I’m determined to be disciplined. I want my daughter to grow up seeing her mommy love herself. I don’t want to teach her my bad habits.
I look forward to growth not only physically but mentally and emotionally. I’m not only working on loving my physically but also incorporating healthier habits all around. I’m going to post my journey once a week because I love my lemon8 family.
Oh and these pics were of me at the Missy Elliot concert 🎵
It’s a feeling many of us know all too well – that complex, often frustrating, love-hate relationship with our own bodies. For years, I struggled with self-confidence, constantly battling negative thoughts and seeking external validation. If you’re anything like me, you might find yourself tired of the constant internal struggle, yearning for a day when self-acceptance feels natural and effortless. Starting a healthy living journey, as I have, by focusing on mindful eating and daily movement, is a fantastic first step. But the real magic happens when you start to shift your mindset. Beyond the gym and the kitchen, cultivating self-love requires deep internal work. It’s about giving that 'inner kid' a big hug and apologizing for years of harsh self-criticism. For me, that meant actively challenging those negative thoughts. When I catch myself being unkind, I pause and reframe: instead of criticizing, I focus on gratitude for what my body can do. This isn't about ignoring areas I want to improve, but about appreciating my body in its current state. Try journaling about your body's strengths, or listing non-physical aspects you love about yourself. It helps build a foundation of self-worth that isn't dependent on appearance. Another huge part of navigating this love-hate dynamic is recognizing that it’s not a race to perfection, but a journey of consistent, gentle effort. There will be days when that 'love' feels distant, and that's okay. What truly matters is how you pick yourself up. For me, it’s about finding joyful movement rather than punishing workouts. It’s about nourishing my body with foods that make me feel good, rather than restrictive diets. And it's also about celebrating small, often overlooked, victories. For instance, feeling genuinely good in an outfit – like a favorite graphic t-shirt paired with a black mini skirt and white sneakers – is a huge step. When I took a mirror selfie at that concert, feeling comfortable and sporting a confident expression, it wasn't just about the clothes or the event. It was a moment of truly embracing myself, proud of how far I've come in my journey to self-acceptance. Those personal 'concert outfit' moments, where you feel genuinely happy and comfortable in your own skin, are powerful affirmations that you are making progress. Ultimately, this journey is about reconnecting with your body and mind, fostering not just physical growth, but mental and emotional well-being too. It's about showing up for yourself with discipline and compassion, knowing that this path is ongoing. And perhaps most importantly, it's about setting an example for the next generation, showing them what it truly means to love yourself unconditionally.