The Mask Was Heavier Than the Wound
6.6 – The Turning Gate
The final veil lifted.
The last illusion shattered.
‘The Last Unspoken’
You will not find me here again,
not in the sinkwater
not in the bruised perfume
of my sleepless apology.
I’ve buried your name
in the jawbone of a bird.
Let the worms decode you—
I am through.
Once, I stitched your absence into my skin,
called it bridal,
called it mine.
I wore your cruelty like silk.
But this is the hour I stop being altar.
This is the day I uncurl your shadow from my throat.
No more requiems in my marrow.
No more hunger shaped like you.
Your ghost is late.
The door is locked.
The table is cleared.
The girl is gone.
I am what rose
after the house collapsed.
Goodbye is not a gesture.
It’s the match I strike
with both hands trembling
and still —
I burn.
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