Six years ago, I had a surgery
Six years ago, I had my first surgery, a double incision mastectomy. I was nervous, scared, and dealing with a lot of anxiety. The surgery was in the morning at Saint Barnabas in Livingston, New Jersey, with Dr. Jonathan Keith—an amazing doctor. Initially, I didn’t want a double incision since I didn’t have much breast fat, but the doctor explained that due to the elasticity in my skin, a less invasive surgery with minimal scarring would have caused the skin to bunch up like a crumpled piece of paper. This was the best option for my chest and would make the recovery easier. Mentally, I wasn’t in the best place at the time, but I managed to get back on my feet after about eight weeks. The hardest part of the recovery was my mental state, and of course, I struggled with basic things like using the bathroom and didn’t have much support at the time. My sibling helped take care of me, and I didn’t feel like myself again until about three months later. During recovery, I had a drain, and eventually, the nipple sensation returned fully. Now, the only thing I’m working on is the discoloration from the scars, which have improved over time. I had a scar revision with three cortisone shots and used silicone tape to flatten the scars. They’re now smooth and flat, and I’m just focused on the discoloration. My chest looks amazing now. #FTM #surgeryrecovery #Lemon8Diary #lgbt #leamon8creator
Six years ago, on April 1, 2019, I underwent a pivotal surgery that changed everything for me. This double incision mastectomy was not just a medical procedure, but a significant step in my journey toward embracing my identity. The daunting feelings of anxiety and nervousness that accompanied the surgery were overwhelming; however, I was fortunate to have an incredible surgeon, Dr. Jonathan Keith, and my sibling by my side during recovery. Each day post-surgery introduced new challenges, from physical limitations to emotional hurdles as I adjusted to my new reality. Understanding the surgical options available was crucial. Despite my initial reservations about choosing a double incision due to my body type, I learned that it was essential for optimal results. The doctor's guidance helped ease my concerns, illustrating how this approach would prevent complications and contribute to a smoother healing process. The recovery period was not just about physical healing; it was also a time of deep emotional reflection. As I navigated the complexities of post-operative care, including managing drains and scar revision with cortisone shots, I slowly began to reclaim my sense of self. My scars have since flattened, and I now focus on improving discoloration, a common concern for many post-surgery patients, but I have come to embrace my transformation. Looking back at these six years, my chest has healed beautifully, serving as a reminder of my resilience. For anyone considering similar surgeries or currently recovering, know that it’s a journey filled with both challenges and victories. Your story matters, and sharing it can inspire others. Remember, you are not alone, and there’s strength in community. Understanding the journey can foster healing and support in ways that sometimes words cannot express.