Tal vez ni existo en el futuro que tanto me asusta
It's a strange thought, isn't it? 'What if I don't even exist in the future that worries me so much?' I've found myself repeating that phrase in my head more often than I'd like to admit. It's not about literally disappearing, but about a deeper fear: the fear that the person I am now won't be able to navigate the challenges ahead, or that the future I envision simply won't include me – the authentic me. It's a heavy, existential dread that can feel incredibly isolating. I remember lying awake, scrolling through my feed, seeing everyone else's seemingly perfect plans for next year, five years, even ten, and thinking, "How are they so sure?" For me, the future often feels like a vast, unknown ocean, and I'm just a small boat without a compass. The worries pile up: climate change, economic uncertainty, personal changes, losing loved ones... it all contributes to this sense of 'not belonging' in tomorrow. One thing that has helped me begin to reframe this feeling is realizing that the future isn't a fixed destination, but a continuous journey. We're not meant to arrive as a fully formed, unchanging person. We evolve. The 'me' of five years from now will be different from the 'me' today, and that's not a failure; it's growth. It's about trusting that you have the resilience and adaptability to meet whatever comes. I started small. Instead of trying to map out my entire life, I focused on what I can control today. What makes me feel grounded? What brings me joy *now*? For me, it was simple things: taking a walk, reading a good book, connecting with a friend. These small acts built a foundation of present-moment stability. Another perspective shift was embracing uncertainty. It's uncomfortable, yes, but it also means possibilities are endless. The future isn't just a place of potential threats; it's a canvas for new experiences, new connections, and new versions of yourself. Instead of fearing not existing in it, I started thinking about how I want to exist with it. What skills do I want to learn? What values do I want to uphold? What kind of person do I want to become through the journey? I also found immense comfort in sharing these feelings. When I finally opened up to a close friend about my 'future dread,' she admitted she felt something similar. Just knowing someone else understood took a huge weight off my shoulders. We might not have all the answers, but we can support each other through the unknown, reminding ourselves that we are capable and worthy of whatever the future holds. So, if you're also grappling with the thought, 'What if I don't even exist in the future that worries me so much?', know that you're not alone. It's a valid and deeply human feeling. Instead of fighting it, try acknowledging it. Then, gently, shift your focus to what you can nurture today, and trust in your ability to adapt and grow. The future isn't designed for a static 'you,' but for an evolving, resilient, and wonderfully complex you.
