First gig since American idol was three days ago!
I’ve been feeling like being on that show was a fever dream. I grew up being told I would be an ugly woman, that no one would accept me, and that I wasn’t as talented as my friends. Well almost a decade later I began my transition and pursued something and I’m seeing all these results that have me feeling so excited to be alive. As a very introverted person, and someone who is equally as insecure as I am introverted, I have been so scared to pursue anything. I’m just happy that I was able to experience something positive throughout my transition and my journey with music. I think I may have the capability to have a stable career doing what I love and that’s all I can ask for. Keep at it loves! #lemon8diarychallenge
It's true what they say about American Idol auditions – they truly set the stage for your entire journey, long before you even hit the TV screen. For me, the regional audition process was a whirlwind of nerves and hope. I remember standing in line, surrounded by so many talented people, wondering if my voice, my story, was enough. It’s not just about singing; it’s about presenting yourself, your potential, and your passion in a raw, vulnerable way. That initial step, even before the judges saw me, was a massive confidence builder, pushing me past my introverted nature. Being on the show, even if it feels like a blur now, absolutely shaped how I approach my music career today. You learn so much about performance, stage presence, and even dealing with the pressure of public scrutiny. For someone like me, who struggled with insecurity for years, that intense environment forced me to confront those fears head-on. It wasn't always easy, and there were days I wanted to hide, but the experience solidified my resolve to pursue music. It showed me that I could do it, despite what past voices had told me. When you leave a show like American Idol, the journey doesn't end – it truly begins in a new way. The initial buzz fades, and you're left to figure out how to translate that exposure into a sustainable career. For me, that meant a lot of introspection. How do I use this platform, this incredible experience, to continue growing as an artist? It wasn’t about instant stardom, but about building something real and lasting. My first gig, just three days ago, felt like the culmination of so many small steps: hours of songwriting, practicing, networking, and simply believing in myself enough to put my art out there again. For anyone wondering about the typical journey for a contestant, especially one like me without a massive pre-show following, it's often more about resilience and self-discovery than overnight fame. You need to leverage every lesson, every connection, and every bit of confidence you gained. The show gives you a unique stamp, but what you do with it afterward is entirely up to you. It's about finding your unique path, refining your sound, and connecting with your audience on your own terms. That’s what I’m doing now, and it feels incredibly liberating to finally be in a space where I can create and perform authentically. If you're on a similar path, remember that every step, no matter how small, builds towards your dream.