and I am still getting to know this version of myself.
Experiencing loss is one of life's most challenging events, and it often changes us in ways we least expect. I have found that grief doesn't annihilate who we are; rather, it reshapes us fundamentally. Before my loss, I thought I knew exactly who I was, but after enduring the silence and the moments no one talks about—the phone calls, the funerals, and especially the quiet that follows when everyone has left—I realized those experiences dismantled parts of me I once took for granted. I learned that surviving grief means acknowledging the disintegration of a prior version of yourself. The person you were before loss cannot simply be restored; instead, a new self emerges, one that is ‘forever altered.’ This new self carries the weight of grief but also the resilience gained through navigating it. Adjusting to this change is a delicate process, often filled with uncertainty and discovery. From my experience, living differently after loss means embracing this altered self with compassion. It involves recognizing that grief rearranged not only emotions but also priorities and perspectives. Everyday moments take on new meanings, and simple acts like remembering or honoring the person who passed become a vital part of daily life. If you find yourself in a similar place, know that it is okay to grieve and to change. Healing is not about returning to who you were; it’s about learning to live with an altered heart and finding strength in your survival. Over time, this journey can lead to a deeper understanding of yourself and your resilience, demonstrating that while grief changes our story, it doesn't end it.
