I suck - by Me

It’s incredibly brave to lay bare your soul, especially in an industry that often demands a polished facade. That feeling of being 'confined to these four walls,' both literally and figuratively, is something I know all too well as an aspiring musician. There’s a constant battle between staying true to yourself and navigating the often brutal landscape of a 'competitive industry.' Sometimes, it feels like you're fighting and falling, constantly crawling back to a perceived 'hole' of self-doubt. 'Being real' in music means exposing your vulnerabilities, which can be terrifying. You hear those words, 'I write interpretive songs that suck,' and it resonates deeply because we've all been there. We question our art, our purpose, asking if there's any 'meaning behind these words I call lyrics.' It’s easy to feel like 'school kills artists,' but often, it's the internal critics, the self-doubt, and the harsh realities of life that truly 'kills artists in themselves.' When you've 'lost all hopes and fall,' it can feel like descending into a personal hell, burning for what seems like no reason at all. The sting of 'betrayal' adds another layer of complexity. Whether it’s a broken promise, a harsh critique, or a personal heartbreak, it deeply impacts your creative spirit. The line 'love isn't supposed to hurt, but in my case it does' is a stark reminder of how personal pain shapes our art. It’s that feeling of a 'fist brushed my face but missed and smacked my jaw' – the unexpected blow, the wound that leaves you questioning 'am I wrong? who the f*ck knows, I know nothing at all.' These experiences, though painful, become the raw material for our most authentic work. As a 'musician,' the journey is rarely linear. There are moments when you 'feel nothing in-between these four walls,' a numbness that can be as terrifying as the pain itself. Yet, it's in these depths that we often find the truest parts of ourselves. The act of creating, even when it feels like your songs 'suck,' is an act of rebellion against that numbness. It’s a way to process the 'greatest pain' and eventually, to 'find peace in my greatest faults.' Sharing these raw, unfiltered truths, even the ones that make us feel vulnerable, is how we connect, heal, and ultimately, survive in this wild, beautiful, and sometimes cruel world of music. Keep creating, keep sharing your truth – it matters more than you know.