Post meltdown thoughts
This mornings goal: get dressed in something other than an oversized sweater and leggings, grab a book from my shelf, and find a coffee shop to try out….by myself.
Outcome: TOTAL FAIL! 😔
The reason this was my goal to begin with was to get out of my comfort zone. My “comfort zone“ has been feeling less comfortable and more depressing. I moved to San Diego about 2 1/2 years ago and haven’t really explored many parts of it. I’m 32 about to be 33 and I can’t help but feel like my life is boring. I want excitement and just try new things, but I’m so insecure with myself and have social anxiety. So I thought, let’s start small.
Step 1: put on some makeup and wear something other than an oversized sweater and leggings. pick something cute from my closet to make me feel good about myself. Well, that was a total fail because nothing in my closet fit right and I felt stupid wearing something other than what I normally do 🥲
Step 2: get out of the apartment and go to a coffee shop I’ve never tried. This was also a total fail because I didn’t leave my apartment. I was so discouraged about failing step one and made excuses of all the things that I needed to do at home. Started thinking of all the possible interactions that could happen with me being in a city I’m not familiar with by myself and freaked myself out 🙃
Tune into next weeks episode when I try again ðŸ«
I wish we lived closer to each other! I would totally go out and explore with you! ðŸ˜