I feel like I’ve wasted my 20s..
Maybe I feel this way because I’m nearing 30, or maybe it’s my period, or the fact that my 10-Year High School Reunion is near, or even just seasonal depression.
Whatever the case is, I always have had this phase of feeling stuck—especially career wise.
I feel like my peers had a plan for their lives…
I see some have gone to college, graduated, got their adult jobs, married, home, kids, nice car, traveling, etc.
And here I am 10 years later still figuring my crap out!
I can’t make up my mind…currently I am a Teacher Assistant for 7th Grade Science, which it’s pretty okay.
I’m not overwhelmed as I was at my old job (Preschool Teacher), plus I get a school’s schedule…downside—the pay—I literally only work to pay my bills.
It’s so overwhelming.
But what’s even more frustrating is that I don’t know exactly what I want to pursue for my career…I’m so intrigued with many things, to where I don’t know how to settle on one thing.
I have thoughts about going back to school to become a Certified Teacher, however, that takes 4 years…do I have 4 years in me to live paycheck to paycheck? No. I don’t even want to do that for 4 weeks!
I also think about pursuing Flight Attendant, but the company I prefer is harder to get in than I expected…I’ve applied 3 times already. I don’t know if it’s my lack of interviewing skills or it just being something I shouldn’t pursue.
Then there’s Content Creation, something that started off as a way for me to express myself and inspire people I didn’t know in real life. It has been my safe space for so long, a place where I can come and truly be my creative self. It’ll be 10 years this month, since my first makeup tutorial on YouTube. I’ve came such a long way with my editing and the overall quality of my content—but I just can’t seem to make something out of my platforms. I get a lot of gifted collabs but none of them has turned into paid collaborations. And I know my content is WORTH it…it’s a passion for me, so I take a lot of time editing things and it’s honestly comes so naturally to me. I just love making sure every detail is on point!
And lastly, my own business…which I’ve gotten the LLC for and everything during the pandemic—planned to launch in 2021—but honestly I chickened out because I didn’t want to spend all of my savings and not be able to make the $ back to take care of my family.
Having my own business is an ultimate goal for me,
it’s where I feel I will have the most freedom and I would truly love learning about the ins and outs of my business. But you have to have $ to spend $ to make $.
Which is so UGHHHH!
Then there’s other times when I have interest in jobs or careers I come encounter with…what intrigued me recently was a ‘Wedding Content Creator’ ‘Leasing Agent’ and ‘Realtor’.
🙂
I think my problem is…
I want to do everything but is that even possible?
Entering your 30s can bring overwhelming thoughts about life direction and accomplishments. Many people grapple with feelings of inadequacy as they compare their journeys to those of their peers. It’s essential to understand that everyone's path is unique, and success isn't defined by the same standards. Embracing vulnerability in discussions about career uncertainty and personal aspirations can be incredibly helpful. Consider reaching out to mentors or joining communities that resonate with your interests. Networking in fields like content creation or entrepreneurial ventures can offer both guidance and support. If you’re contemplating a career shift or further education, researching options that align with your passions may lift the weight of decision-making. Remember, it’s never too late to pursue a new path or develop interests that excite you. Explore, learn, and adapt; life is a journey filled with possibilities. Whether you're contemplating returning to school, diving into content creation, or starting your business, resources are available to help you transition smoothly. Embracing change and being open to new opportunities can lead to personal and professional growth.
Loved reading this as I’ve had similar thoughts now that I’m 30. Safe to say sometimes things just don’t get figured out as fast as we want. But seems like you’re working toward quite a few different things. What helped me is when I focused on one particular important thing and let the rest go. (Only if you can)