TOLD ME TO DUMP HIM

we’d only known each other for three months when we got engaged.

you knew this. you knew he was more excited about it than i was and you knew i didn’t want anything more than absolutely necessary.

saying, “i love you” had stopped being enough. i wanted to do more. so when marriage came up, it felt like a natural progression

you were loud. quick to tell me i was so dumb and so young and falling into a system i couldn’t possibly understand.

i listened. it made sense. he was worried too.

we felt crazed

i married him anyways. and ten years in, i think i understand what you were saying.

this is lucky. the way he loves me is good.

his patience and want to work is rare but his willingness to learn and grow is unmatched.

i haven’t been made better but have been given room to be/find myself.

i’ve stopped simply surviving and am learning to live. he’s helped me create a safe home where we can all feel wanted and loved.

this is lucky.

i know why you were worried enough to tell an acquaintance she was making a poor life choice. to dump the guy who was loudly in love.

this is lucky. i’ve seen so much fall apart and my constant is easy. to love him is like breathing but to like him is the realest bonus.

this is lucky

thank you for looking out. it’s turning out alright.

i hope you’ve found some hope in love

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