Let’s Get Real: Diary Entry

I’m going to be a little vulnerable here; because maybe you can relate ?

I am writing this sitting in the dark on the bathroom floor. Why? Because I’m overstimulated and the bathroom is very much a safe space for me . The bright lights, the music blasting from the television, my boyfriend on the phone, the dog’s paws click clacking on the floor. It was too much. I could not take it anymore .

Is this normal ? Maybe. Maybe not. But I think back to my child hood when I would hide in the tub or closet and found peace. Often times I would fall asleep there. There was no profound trauma. I am the eldest girl of 6 kids and if you ever seen the Loud House… that’s exactly what it was.

I think it’s interesting to see these behaviors patterns following me . Or atleast I am still choosing them. If this is anything; it is a reminder to listen to yourself and take time to be truly with yourself. No matter what that looks like. We are not supposed to be constantly bombarded with stimuli. It’s not healthy. But a bathroom in the middle of my boyfriend’s apartment; in the middle of the hustle and bustle of NYC, I found solace. I hope no matter where you are , you are able to find the same .

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