Honesty

To those I’ve harmed and who hate me

I completely understand. While I don’t think the hate is so much for who I am today, it is definitely for my past self and for all of the things I’ve done and said. Your anger, hate and rage towards me, is very valid.

If I were in your shoes, despite the change that I’ve made, I would still be hurt over this, I would not want to let it go because of how hurtful and bad it truly was. I scarred people with my words and my words alone. I know some of you will always carry this resentment, to always question my motives and to not fully trust me. I know there will always be questions in your mind as to why this would happen and still wanting to do physical damage to me if I were actually around you in person. There will always be that skeptical side where you question who I really am, and I understand that too. My behaviors were sociopathic and that’s what is truly a shame because after discovering myself and spending so much time alone, I’ve realized how good of a person I am and this is who I truly was inside all along, I was just hurting inside.

So with this, I say don’t be so hard on yourself, you DID in fact react in a normal way, despite me trying to manipulate you into thinking you did not. Some of you are some very strong minded people and I want you to know that it’s okay to still have these feelings towards me, just remember that forgiveness does not require reconnection and you are a very kind human being to give me a second chance. To even give me the chance to let me speak my truth.

Learn from this, from my mistakes and strive to do better and treat the world in a better way, to make it a better place.

Love you guys ♥️

P.s. healed people can also heal other people