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#lemon8diarychallenge Yesterday was my brother's birthday. He would have been 47 years old. I felt him with me all day in my smile as things went sideways. I worked out, made breakfast, made money with that smile. Cheered on my coworkers as we found issue after issue with "the bad has already happened, let's make something good out of the mess". My daughter and I spent some time before her bedtime playing Nintendo switch with silly laughter and conversation about her classmates. I shook my head at the bridezillas having tantrums with the corners of my mouth upturned. I went to bed grinning and woke up and midnight, screaming into my pillow. He's gone. He's been gone for two years but it only feels like he's been gone since yesterday. Because he was just with me yesterday. I guess the point is this: grief is a cyclical process. Some days you'll feel them. Some days you'll feel the loss. #grief
Grief is a profound and universal experience that can affect individuals in various ways. It's essential to recognize that the process is not linear; instead, it often comes in waves, with some days feeling more manageable than others. During moments of joy, such as celebrations or everyday routines, we may feel the presence of those we've lost, sparking memories and emotions that remind us of their absence. Engaging in activities, like spending time with family or pursuing hobbies, can be therapeutic. Many find comfort in sharing their experiences with support groups or communities, fostering connections with others who understand the complexities of grief. Tools like journaling or creative outlets such as art or music can also help individuals process their feelings, offering an expressive avenue for the pain and love intertwined in loss. Additionally, it's important to remember that reaching out for professional help, when needed, can provide the necessary support to navigate through difficult emotions. As we honor those who have passed, we must also give ourselves the grace to feel joy, sorrow, and everything in between. Ultimately, it's this balance that helps us honor their memories while continuing to embrace our lives.