I wish I could just disappear somtimes 😕
You're probably wondering why someone would wish such a thing. My reason behind it is a lot of times, I feel like everyone around me might be happier without me.
I am currently going to therapy for my mental health, and it has helped to some point, but I still have my down moments. I have not been diagnosed as depressed, I just have depressive symptoms as wanting to disappear, distant myself from my loved ones, and so forth. I do NOT want to harm myself or others.
There are moments I question why I even bother coming around people because it feels like everyone would be happier without me. I also have moments a lot as of lately where I just want to be left alone.
I would love to move further away from family and friends to just be left alone and not have to hear about everyone else's drama and problems. Not to be told rumors and gossip, just live life in peace.
I love my family and friends, but emotionally, it can be truly draining on me, and I just sit and listen in silence, waiting for the convo to be over so I can breathe again rather than stressing over other people problems.
I try my best to give positive helpful advice and everything, but most of the time, no one even bothers listening to a word I say. I complain about my problems and I get told very hurtful negative feedback that leaves me wondering if they would just be happier without me. If I never existed, would they be at peace? Why do they hate me? What did I do? Why am I here?
Sometimes, I really feel hopeless and like everyone hates me. Especially when I'm ridiculed about the things I say or the stuff I do. I feel like I need to always put on a fake smile for everyone. I cry silently to myself in my room or the bathroom. My bf is the only person I can truly be myself with.
I am trying to get into journaling to help me deal with moments like these so I don't feel so down about life.
Is it just me, or do anyone else have moments like these that they just wish they would disappear? or just distant themselves from others as much as possible? What should I do? Please comment down below ✨️
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In moments of emotional distress, many individuals experience a profound sense of isolation and the desire to escape from life's pressures. Such feelings can stem from overwhelming responsibilities, social dynamics, or personal experiences that lead to self-doubt. It's essential to recognize these moments are common, and there is support available. Therapy and open conversations about mental health can provide crucial tools for understanding and managing these feelings. Engaging in activities like journaling can be a therapeutic outlet for expressing thoughts and emotions, empowering individuals to cope with their struggles. Moreover, sharing experiences with others who can empathize fosters a sense of belonging and can alleviate the loneliness associated with such feelings. Online communities dedicated to mental health discussions provide platforms for sharing stories and insights, reinforcing that no one navigates these feelings alone. Emphasizing support systems, whether friends, family, or mental health professionals, can make a significant difference. It's important to consciously practice self-compassion and challenge the negative thoughts that suggest others would be happier without you. Small daily affirmations can transform perspectives, helping to create a more positive mindset. Lastly, if you are feeling overwhelmed or hopeless, it's essential to reach out for help. Resources are available, and seeking support is a strong and courageous step toward healing.
Its not just you.❤️🥰