Horrible Self Esteem 10:35AM
Just because of your perception of your stage of living isn’t where you would like to be, it’s where you are at right now.
Your perception of going to big and bold places, or having capital to live comfortably on, or even love, in and of itself are items we place value on because they are items everyone feels makes a life a “good” life.
The good life is already here… I honestly feel that to be true.
The frustration arrives when the disconnection happens… but that disconnection is internal.
I have HORRIBLE self esteem, it stems from toxicity in childhood that has literally overpowered my thought processes and actions, and have of itself created a narrative that I don’t matter. That I am a waste of skin. I counter with “But I am a good person, I don’t hurt I try to help, that I am worthy of even the smallest praise.” - BUT it’s not enough internal dialogue to alter the narrative for the positive. Now I feel life a failure trying to just make myself have SOME assemblance of normalcy.
Many individuals grapple with self-esteem challenges that can stem from childhood experiences and societal expectations. Understanding that self-worth is not derived from external achievements but rather one's intrinsic value is essential. To counter negative thoughts, practicing mindfulness and positive affirmations can help shift your internal dialogue. Additionally, engaging in activities that align with your passions may foster a sense of accomplishment and fulfillment. It's also crucial to acknowledge that self-esteem issues are common and can be addressed through various methods, including therapy and support groups. Connecting with others who share similar struggles can provide a sense of community and belonging. Remember, the journey to self-acceptance is ongoing, and it's okay to seek help along the way. You are not alone in your feelings, and it's possible to rise above them.
