What Hurts Me Most

Why do I have so much guilt?

It was never my job to care for you, to protect you.

After all the trauma I can still say I wish things could’ve been done differently.

I wish we all had a happily ever after.

I wish we could’ve continued the yearly trips.

I wish we could all come together and talk about our week.

Most of all I wish we could all come together with love in our hearts.

There’s so much pain, hatred, anger, resentment.

Where would we even start?

Honestly, I don’t even want to rehash it. I just want to start over and be happy with you all.

The reality is it may never happen.

He’s stuck in his ego.

She’s in her own world.

And then there’s you.

But if you are all I have then I’ll take it.

I guess what’s hurting me most are the things that were said and what was left unsaid.

When will I accept reality?

#fyp #depression #ptsdawareness #winter #MentalHealth

2024/11/16 Edited to

... Read moreDealing with guilt can often feel overwhelming, especially after experiencing trauma. It's common to question our roles in relationships and feel burdened by unfulfilled expectations. Societal pressures can amplify these feelings, leading to cycles of regret and a longing for a happier past. People affected by mental health issues, such as depression and PTSD, often grapple with these emotions, feeling isolated in their struggles. However, acknowledging these feelings is the first step toward healing. Engaging in open dialogues about emotional health can create a supportive community, allowing individuals to share their experiences without judgment. Finding healthy coping strategies—such as journaling, therapy, or connecting with loved ones—can facilitate recovery from the past. It's essential to recognize that starting over can be a powerful choice. Emphasizing self-love and understanding can pave the way for rebuilding relationships. Embrace the journey of healing at your own pace, knowing that each small step leads towards a brighter future. Learn to set boundaries and prioritize your mental health to create a nurturing environment for yourself and those around you.

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