I know I’m not really going to be missed I’ve failed as a lover a brother a son I’ll never get the chance to be a father i keep having nightmares of my death and a beautiful black moth guiding me to the edge of the world from all I’ve seen I’ve come to believe I’m going to die young I don’t know wh

It hurts so much in my heart

Shes in my dreams i tell her how much i love but they end with me waking up depressed

Damn my soul my head my heart I wish I could take a damn knife to it to sever the pain as it affects my mind and body it completely shuts me down no matter what and I’ve dove everything and the bottom of the damn bottle doesn’t do shit why why was it so easy for her but me I dream of her she’s in m

My heart still belongs to her even now

Like a flood my eyes swell my heart heavy feeling the presence of a love that only exists in my mind

I had the saddest moment ever my family was visiting and my little cousin she was happy to see me and she asked where my girlfriend was I told her she’s gone away somewhere else we broke up not to long ago and she blocked me on everything about but my cousin told me that she really really hopes she

Always will be forever

I miss you sweetheart so much