Trauma Dump! Let’s heal!
Trauma Dump with me. Let’s heal together! I’m thinking about documenting my healing Journey. Let me know if that interested you!
Note: i cope with humor. I may seem like im just unfazed thats not the case I promise i just have a really unhealthy relationship with my brain!
I’ll start!
Hi! My name is Caylee. I’m 22 years old. I was SA’d when i was 8/9 by my cousin who was 14/15 at the time. I was then bullied all throughout middle school and got threatened to be beat to an inch of my life over a rumor I didn’t start. Fast forward a few years i swapped schools and my ex guy bestfriend pulled a knife on me. I was trapped between my friends and computers. I then get with my first boyfriend who was emotionally abusing. I then got with my first love who was there through the death of my Godmom (she died of a energy drink induced heart attack), my mother’s affair and then my parents divorce. I had a chemical pregnancy with our baby in 2022. I went through the emotions of that alone. We break up a month later. Fast forward a few months i start dating this guy who was finalizing his divorce from his “crazy” ex-wife. ( we are now friends and she just had a beautiful baby girl) i help start raising his little brother. They then spend 3 months spending time with me and my family. January 13-14th of 2023 him and I argue and he comes to my house unannounced flying into my yard ( my younger 2 sisters are playing in the yard at that time) i get in the car for us to talk and he proceeds to drive recklessly with me. He flies back in my yard and nearly hits my at the time 11/12 year old little sister (it was the night before and on her birthday this was taking place). We broke up that night. Not soon after that i met my now fiancée. I thought he was odd so I ghosted him after this and we proceeded to have off and on friendship up until October 2023.
In this time my bestfriend introduced me to her guy bestfriend. We were off an on until we decided to just be friends due to his own trauma with the death of his first love. I was them in a semi abusive relationship he was more verbally abusing. He did take a chunk out of my arm once. I then dumped him. I was in a off and on situationship with my first love at this point as well. Fast forward to January of this year. We had been in and out of a “death facility” with my great grandmother. (She was stealing lives from cats) she finally had her conversation with God and they decided it was time for her to go home. The day of her funeral my parents informed me that the ex that nearly hit my sister had went home and shot his mom and little brother. ( i am still grieving this to this day). We proceeded to lose 4 more after that. We attended 4 funerals in January. My childhood dog died in the previous months.
Thanks for coming to my trauma dump. If you relate to something and want to talk feel free to message me. I am very open about my experiences for ask as many questions as you wish!
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Trauma can have a lasting impact on our mental health, affecting how we cope and connect with others. Many people experience trauma in various forms, from childhood abuse to familial loss, leading to challenges like anxiety, depression, and trust issues. Understanding the healing process is essential for recovery. Sharing experiences and engaging in conversations about trauma can promote authenticity and create a support network. It’s important to acknowledge that healing is not linear; it often involves revisiting painful memories and confronting emotions that may have been buried. Embracing vulnerability can help in forming deeper connections with others who have similar experiences. Resources such as therapy, support groups, or expressive writing can provide avenues for healing. Engaging in self-care practices, such as mindfulness and creative expression, can be beneficial as well. Remember, you’re not alone in this journey; there are many who understand and are willing to share their stories. If you’re ready to take the next step, reach out and start the conversation today.
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